Post-Its.

I had a tough time last night before bed. This morning I woke up and I looked into the mirror. I saw an "I love you" note stuck on it. I lifted the toilet seat up ('cause I am human) and there was a sticky note on the seat too. Haha. Then I turned and there was another one on the door. I dunno how I missed that one. I turned to wash my hair and as soon as I opened the shower door I read another "I love you" note on my conditioner. There were two more, but I dunno where those are. I couldn't find them all! Oh yeah. One was on the shelves. Hmm. It's nice. Kolin does things like that for me once in a while. It's fun. I love it. :)

The Saga.

So, much like Harry Potter series, I got sucked into the Twilight Saga. Yes. I heard about it last year, but I didn't give it any thought. I saw all the books. Still no interest. I saw all the fans. I tried to tuuuurn away from it. It didn't help. I rented the DVD one day and, although the movie wasn't THAT great, it made me wonder something: Why can't Edward read Bella's mind? That question ate at me. I HATE that! So after fighting it for too long, I gave in. I just started Breaking Dawn this morning. That's how it happened with Harry Potter. When I saw the movie I asked myself, "Why didn't Harry die?" I am such a sucker. Then I started to read all these bullshit polls on "Which book is better: Harry Potter or Twilight." It pained me to read.

"Oh, Edward!"
"TWILIGHT! EDWARD! ROB IS SO HOTT! HARRY POTHEAD IS UGLY!"
"TWILIGHT IS WAAAAY BETTER! Harry Potter sucks. I WANNA MARRY EDWARD!"

Jesus. You would think the question was, "How horny are you over Edward Cullen?" or "Which fictional character is the hottest?" Gag.

I am 26, BTW. Haaaaw. I am getting married next year. Kolin and I talked about some dates and we picked a few. It's going to be spontaneous. Sort of. I dunno. We may go to Vegas. We may not. Maybe the court will marry us. Who knows. I just want to get married. Maybe in 25 years we will get "properly" married.

Oh. The Twilight OST is good. Get it. I'm such a freak.

"This is where I say I've had enough.."

And no one should ever feel the way that I feel now.
A walking open wound,
a trophy display of bruises
And I don't believe that I'm getting any better.
Any better.

Even though I don't feel that way anymore it's still great to go back and listen to these songs. Dashboard binge! Woo!

So, it's been a while since I posted anything (about four years). Yep. I dropped the ball. This place used to be a great place to vent all sorts of emotions. I think as soon as I move out I will be able to get back on. So much has happened since I moved out in October of 2005. The best things were meeting Kolin, having Kolin move in with me and getting engaged to Kolin.

Heh. But really, a lot more has happened. I lost 30 pounds and gained 40. Developed an anxiety problem. I worry about death everyday. I worry about everything. I worry. Period. But I am doing better now.

I look back at my blog and realize that I was pretty emotional then. I still am, but not in the same level that I am now. Everyday I feel like I am finally growing up (with the occasional tantrum). And it doesn't scare me as I thought it would when I was younger. I am actually eager. Or is this just shit talk? I won't know until it happens.

God. What the fuck am I talking about. I don't know how to do this anymore. Meh. It will take time to adjust.

Oh yes. New hair.

Three colors: pink/purple (raspberry), red and blonde. So, maybe four?

I got to carve a pumpkin at work yesterday.

Happy Halloween, btw.



I posted various pictures. Some of the pumpkin and some of the kids work. The bear is my class bear, Lily, in her costume. The Vampire is the teacher's "ex". Haha. God.

Some parents just amaze me.

I have been working in the education field for over two years. This is my third year (yay). Today, a parent was yelling at another parent because she wanted her son to cross the street. Cross the street during heavy traffic. This parent KNOWS there is a crosswalk just feet away from where he was. But no. She wanted her son to cross in this specific space because it was convenient for her.

So, she yelled at this other parent because she wouldn't stop. I could hear her colorful language from where I was standing. Next to some of my kids. The lady in the car stopped for a bit and then went. XD Good for her. That mother pisses me the fuck off. She is some piece of work. WHO CARES IF YOUR CHILD COULD GET HIT BY A CAR FOR NOT CROSSING ON THE CROSSWALK. Bah. Never liked her since I first heard her. Loud-ass bitch.

Yay. Posted.