So it's true.

Sin just called me a few minutes ago telling me that KROQ mentioned that the APC concert has been postponed. It was hard to believe since it's on April Fool's day, but I still had to check it out. Blah. Maynard is sick and the concert was moved up for next Wednesday. Oh well, it happens. I rather have him well and rested than shitty and cranky. :) Josh's been bad too.

2004-03-31 A PERFECT CIRCLE FORCED TO POSTPONE UPCOMING SHOWS DUE TO ILLNES
A PERFECT CIRCLE have postponed their upcoming tour dates through Friday, April 2 and are in the process of rescheduling these shows. Lead singer MAYNARD JAMES KEENAN is ill and unable to perform at this time. The shows affected include Sacramento (March 31), Long Beach (April 1), San Diego (April 2), Boise (April 5), Spokane (April 6) and Vancouver (April 8). The band's tour date in Las Vegas (March 29) was also postponed earlier this week.

The rescheduled tour dates are below. Please stay tuned for information about the new Las Vegas, Boise, Spokane and Vancouver dates. Patrons should hold onto their tickets for all postponed shows.

Date City Venue
Sun 4/4 Sacramento, CA Memorial Auditorium
Tue 4/6 San Diego, CA Cox Arena
Wed 4/7 Long Beach, CA Long Beach Arena

I gotta tell my boss about this now.

WOMEN WITH BIG BOOBS ARE SMARTER

Ehhh. It depends. They have to be your REAL boobs, right?

Experts aren't sure why bigger headlights translate into more brain power. Hahahahaha.

Whoa. Someone just threw up in the radio. She was giving her daily report when BLEEEEEEEGH. Heh. DJ there said it smelled like chicken. Yum.

I want my INDUSTRIAL. Damn... it.

Another long day.

My grandma woke me up at 8 AM so that I would be ready before she came back from her shopping. She was taking me to my aunt's instead of my aunt picking me up at home. We had to make a stop at the Salvation Army to buy shit for her to take to Mexico. She sells stuff. We arrive at my aunt's home and say our goodbyes since Grandma was going back to Mexico. I hung around the house while my aunt got the kids ready for school. Since I was getting my cartilage done she asked if I wanted something to "relax" me. I had two choices and I asked for the strongest one that she had. Vicodin. Mmmmm. I missed you. Anyway, my aunt and I took the twins to school before we headed out to Downtown Pomona to check out this piercing place. She got her labret, tongue, tragus, and cartilage there. It was closed so we opted to go out and eat instead of waiting for them to open. Burgers. After that we went back to Downtown Pomona and checked out some of the stores. A lot of the street punks hang there so they have a lot of cool stores around. It was getting close to opening time so my aunt and I waited outside the store for a while. While waiting someone honked and I (being a retarded one) turned around to see a couple of punks in a car.

Aunt: Ooooh. They honked at you.
Me: Noo. Why the hell for? Psssh.
Aunt: Ha. Don't tell me that they honked at ME.

She's pregnant, but they COULD have. You never know. Bah.

So, they place finally opens and we go in to check out some of their pictures. I've already decided on an industrial, but I wanted to check another one my aunt told me about. I asked about the price for both and they were the same so I stood there and debated on which one to get. I finally asked for the industrial when the dude tells me that they are out of 12 gauge needles. Graaaaah. I was disappointed, but I decided to go for that other piercing that my aunt told me about (it's a spiral piercing) and he tells me to pick which color I wanted. So, as I was picking on a color he looks at me and says, "Oh no, sorry honey, I forgot. I need the needles for that too." Graaah. I threw a liiiiiittle, tiny tantrum. Heh. Oh well. He said he was going to probably get them that afternoon. Before we left, my aunt noticed a picture of Liz Tyler dressed as one of her characters from LotR. It seemed that dude loved her. He was even willing to see Jersey Girl even though Ben Afflek was in that movie. Or as he called him... Assflek. Oh yeeeeeah. Right on. I told that dude I was more of a Harry Potter person. And he went, o_O. He thought I was into Harry Potter in a dirty way. Riiiiiight.

So, my aunt and I picked up one of the kids and we went to Walmart after that. I bought a few items *cringe*. I really hesitated since I am saving my money. You know? I think I am turning into a fucking miser. Nooooooo. :( We leave and go back to school to pick up the rest of the clan. Four boys in all. Poor tia. When we got home I called the piercing place to find out if he had the needles yet. He didn't. Meeeeh. I am going again tomorrow. I saw my uncle. Wooo. I love that man. He's cool. He's rough and scary, but cool. :D All day I was dragging ass because of the Vicodin my aunt gave me. Felt good, though. My aunt is also taking me to get a pedicure tomorrow. I've never had one and well... wanted to try it out. More money wasted. Ahhh. Shut up, Cristal. You worked for it.

So yeah. Uhhh... fuck this. Tired.

My eyes! They burn again! AHH!

Ack. Long day. Hmmm.

Julian came by today to give Mari's game back and well, I was bored as hell so he took me to the mall. I had to exchange a pair of Dickies anyway. My mom. I went to Hot Topic, but I wasn't really planning to buy anything. I looked around for a while and this girl that worked there kept asking us if we were good. That's just routine, but when she started to have a conversation with me, I was like... o_O. People don't converse with me. Period. They might ask me questions, but never have an actual conversation with me. I have never spoken to anyone for that long ever in a store. I really liked this chain necklace, but I told myself I could make a better and less expensive one. I ended up buying an APC pin. :D My brother was like, "Damn, I think that girl liked you." Haaa. Dumbass. He dropped me off after that since he had work.

My grandmother came over from Mexico again. She asked me to go to the Social Security offices to help translate for her. While waiting, some little girl was singing a song that I ASSUME she made up. Something about a monkey teasing a certain "Mr. Alligator" and how Mr. A ate that monkey or something. That little girl made me laugh so much. She was singing it to the lady in front of her and that lady was so uncomfortable, she kept looking away. Ha. I also made my Great Grandad try on my spikes.

Me: Heh, alright. I'll take them off now.
Him: Yeah, people still start thinking I am gay for wearing them.

Heh.

So, after that we all went back home to rest a bit and eat before the three of us headed over to my aunt home. I haven't seen her in months. She's pregnant and I wanted to know how she was doing. Oh man. She was so happy to see me. She almost screamed. All of us went to Vernon (close to LA) to take Grandma so she can buy more shit to take to Mexico. On our way back to her house I told her about Kolin and she gave me a high five. That surprised me. I was expecting her to throw a bunch of shitty questions at me, but... I guess not. ROCK. :D

Her: Is this for real?
Me: Yep.
Her: Good.

Anyway, we all went back to her place, I played with her cats (egh... cat hair), and I am planning to see my aunt again tomorrow. :D Woo! I can't wait.

I want to see your socks, Jen. :)

It was YOU who could get me hiiiigh! With whatever you say, you're telling me something real. What we DOO, it doesn't matter noooooow! Whatever it takes for you to stay with meee.

Oooh yeah. Bored again. I still have headaches too.

One! Two! Three! To every broken here in heeeeere... I think I heard that song four times today. But there's still tomorrow, forgeeet the sorrow... I've been listening to the radio again. I'm going to see APC in three days and I don't know if I've said this, but... uh, I am not really as excited as I should be about it. The fuck is wrong with me, right? I know, I know. I just have a shitload on my mind. I guess that's why I've been having headaches. I've been craving to feel something. Anything. When I do, it only lasts for a minute or two. It quickly fades. Hurts my head. :P

My name is KIIIIIIIIIIID... I wish that would just die. *frown*

Ah. As soon as I am there I will feed off of Sin's energy. :)

Your sins into me... oh, my beautiful one! Okaaaaay. Bed time for me now.

"They were right about you."

Rawr. Work was slow, but I stayed an extra hour just in case. Last week my stepdad sent me home and as soon as I left a bunch of customers filled up the restaurant. Meh heh heh. So yeah, he asked Ramiro, The Boss, if I could stay an extra hour. Woo.

I'm getting better at counting money at the top of my head. I still hate it, though. I have the habit of doing things at least two or three times before I am done with it. Such as reading. I read the same page twice (or three times) so that I am able to grasp the story. Not all the time, though. A customer told me something today, but I didn't get it all. All I understood was "you" and "great smile." Kept telling me over and over. I thought, "Why don't you say that when your wife is around, eh?" But, I just nodded and smiled. Eh, he was just being nice. Not everyone sees me that way. :P

I had to wait a while after a clocked out at work. They have cable there so I sat in front of the Big TV and watched MuchMusic (I MISS that channel). They had a rock top ten countdown. I finally got to see APC's The Outsider. Okay, I read about it first in a message board and from what I read many HATED the video. One message went somewhere around the lines of, "Fuck you, APC. Just... fuck you." Oh yeah.

I tried to DL it, but it was too big so I just had to wait and hope MTV would show it. Fucking MTV. I hardly watch TV, anyway. I sat there and I knew then what the fans were talking about, but I didn't let that ruin the song. It's a good song. I'm just a little... disappointed in the video. It could have been way better. Way. I sat there and watched AFI before leaving outside for Mother to take me home. Along the way she complained about how my cousin's Quincenera went. I had work, so I couldn't go to the mass, but I wouldn't have gone anyway. My mother just left for the party. Anyway, as my mother complained I just laughed and thought about my sister's eyes. She has beautiful eyes.

I have something against my aunt. That's why I didn't want to go. Oh well. I hope someone comes soon. I need a ride somewhere.

Buckbeeeeeak.

Here's some new PoA pictures. Mostly Buckbeak. I've been too lazy to post anything HP-related info.

The Choleric Offspring

I made a blog about seven months ago, but it never went anywhere and since I've been bored (again) I built another site (with frames) around that blog. I had invited Jen to be in it (in the beginning), but it never went anywhere. :P It's a stupid blog. Oh, and I fucked up the original blog, so I had to make a new one just to work it with the site. I do shit like that all the time.

Oh yeah, HT's been having Office Space shit. Fuckin' A. :D

As I was eating breakfast...

I thought to myself:

If we were all hermaphroditic... being gay wouldn't be a big deal.

X 1039 PLAYLIST

Artist/Group Song Title

1. A PERFECT CIRCLE THE OUTSIDER
2. TRAPT ECHO
3. LOST PROPHETS LAST TRAIN HOME
4. INCUBUS MEGALOMANIAC
5. A.F.I. SILVER AND COLD
6. AUDIOSLAVE I AM THE HIGHWAY
7. GODSMACK RE-ALIGN
8. NICKELBACK FIGURED YOU OUT
9. OFFSPRING (CAN'T GET MY) HEAD AROUND YOU
10. HOOBASTANK THE REASON
11. STAIND HOW ABOUT YOU
12. LIMP BIZKIT BEHIND BLUE EYES
13. BLINDSIDE ALL OF US
14. ORGY THE OBVIOUS
15. LO PRO SUNDAY
16. DROWNING POOL STEP UP
17. PUDDLE OF MUDD HEEL OVER HEAD
18. KORN EVERYTHING I'VE KNOWN
19. 311 LOVE SONG
20. COURTNEY LOVE MONO
21. FINGER ELEVEN ONE THING
22. TANTRIC HEY NOW
23. APARTMENT 26 GIVE ME MORE
24. SEVENDUST BROKEN DOWN
25. YELLOWCARD OCEAN AVENUE
26. THE VINES RIDE
27. LINKIN PARK LYING FROM YOU
28. GODSMACK RUNNING BLIND
29. SOIL REDEFINE
30. JET COLD HARD BITCH
31. ILL NINO THIS TIME'S FOR REAL
32. PRE THING FADED LOVE
33. CYPRESS HILL WHAT'S YOUR NUMBER?

Some of these songs I haven't heard yet, but then again I hardly listen to the radio. Tantric? I thought those guys were dead. I got a chance to listen to their new song tonight (last night?) and I will say this: It sounds like their last one. They still remind me of Creed. Tsk, tsk, tsk. As for the top five, I'm surprised that APC is on top. Surprised they're in that list at all. I'm getting sick of Megalomaniac. Incubus rocks, but... let the song GO.

I really wish I had my Music Mojo back. I miss it. :l :O Rooster by AIC is on. I love how this station plays a lot of AIC. So does KCAL 96.7. And from what I see, they really spiffed up their site. Wow. You should have seen it before. I was tempted to email them and ask if I could design their site for free. That's how shitty it was.

Then there's the corporate KROQ. I just looked at their most played list and I saw one that made me go :O. Modest Mouse. The hell? No, seriously. *shrugs* They even have their 106.7 BIGGEST KROQ BANDS OF ALL TIME list. It's version 4.0.

They have Eminem in there. -_- Gaaaay.

Heeey, now Closer is on the radio. :P

It says "Early Entrance" in there. Sin is sure that we were one of the first 100 to buy the tickets so we get to get in early, but... I don't know. Did you get an email saying that we could, Sin? I heard you had to get one in a message board. Eh. We'll see. :D Glee.

I hope we don't sit close. Right, Sin? :P

I've been having headaches since Friday.

I feel so strange. Like something bad is happening or about to happen. Shit.

Damn mosquitos.

David gave me the keys to my car today and showed me how to work it a bit. He's a smoker so I washed and vacuumed the car, too. I think it will take a while before the smell of tobacco is gone for good. Jen called me while I was washing the car. I talked her head off. Sorry, Jen. ;) I tend to talk a lot when I am working on something. She wasn't supposed to call me either since she's in "trouble." Bad Jen. ;) It was rather late when I started cleaning so I didn't do a good job at washing my car. Too dark outside. Oh well. There's always next week.

Eh. My cousin called me too and asked if I could find a karaoke version of Mariah Carey's "Always Be My Baby." His girlfriend has an audition on the 3rd (I hear she's a hell of a singer) and needs the track ASAP so she can practice. I haven't seen him in... three years? He's been living in Seattle until a few weeks ago when he came back and brought his girl with him.

Now... I need a new keychain. :)

And this from CNN.

INDIANAPOLIS, Indiana (AP) -- A 4-year-old boy brought crack cocaine worth up to $10,000 to his preschool class Monday, authorities said.

Police said the boy took rocks of crack cocaine out of his backpack and showed them to other children in his Head Start class, saying the drugs were flour. Teachers realized it was cocaine and called authorities.

Police searched the boy's home, but did not find the parents, Sgt. Russell Burns said.

The boy and his sister were placed in protective custody and arrest warrants were issued for the parents, Burns said. No names were released.

Flour. I don't think I knew what flour was at that age.

The sound of cats fucking is gone. Yay.

I didn't have work today, but I still woke up early because some people were coming over to install our new windows. Oh yeah. Those old fuckers are gone. I won't wake up to the sound of airplanes, traffic, dogs... or cats fucking. Most of the day I ran errands with my mother. The new truck seems decent. Hard to get in it since it's sorta tall and I am kinda short. I talked to my mother a lot today. Mostly about Kolin. She asked me what was his full name and I told her.

Kolin McDaniel.

Mom: Ko-leen?
Me: Kolin.
Mom: Kaaaaaah-len.
Me: Y-Yeeah. Sorta. Heh. Kolin Something McDaniel.
Mom: Something?
Me: Yeah.
Mom: Is that his name?
Me: No. He has a middle name.
Me: I won't tell you, though
Mom: Why not?
Me: Because he hates it. I've never told anyone. Not even said it to myself out loud.
Mom: Tell meeee.
Me: Ha. No.
Mom: Why nooot? It's not like he's going to know.
Me: HA. Knowing you... you'd tell him.
Mom: How. I don't even remember his first name.
Me: KOLIN.

Then my sister came and both of them tried to get it out of me. Funny shit.

I felt very weak today, too. I know I have a lot in my mind, but I can't find what it is. While I was watching TV my stepdad called me outside and the first thing I saw was a bird in his hands. I went "Awwwww, but that "aww" quickly turned into "Oh no!" David showed me it's leg and it was fucked up. Broken. It was still attached together (barely) by a thin layer of skin or whatever it has. It's little foot was practically dangling. I felt bad and it took a while, but I ended up calling animal control. I waited for two hours outside for someone to come. That's when my sister's boyfriend and two other kids from down the street came to me.

"Hey, Craig! Look! It's that bird that you shot!"

I just turned silent and walked away. I had so much anger in me that I couldn't look at those kids. I wanted to cry because of their cruelty. So, it was my sister's boyfriend that shot the bird. I told her, "I don't want to see him near the house ever again. I'm sorry, but that's how it's going to be." She understood. She's pretty mad at him too. I told her how big of a dick he was and so on. Bah. I haven't even spoken to the damn kid and I already dislike the fucker.

Anyway, it tried to escape once, but while I was trying to tie a string on it's little leg to stop it from bleeding it got away from me and flew. I felt like total shit. My sister, her little friends and I looked everywhere for it. We never found it. Blah. I just went back in and cleaned up the house since mother went to work late. Animal came after (three hours after I had called) and told the guy what had happened.

They were going to kill it, anyway. I can't stand people sometimes. I really can't. Anyway, those are the new windows.

So NOW HT has Harry Potter stuff (well, it's been a while now). It's only because Book 3 is darker than the last two. I hope they get some Dementor shirts in there. That would rock.

You have a Lost Soul. No one is really sure what
that can always mean, because it can be defined
in many ways. As Legend goes, lost souls were
the spirits of passed away people who are
neither in heaven nor hell. They walk the
earth, brooding mysteriously, always appearing
when you expect it least. So hence, if you have
a Lost Soul, then you are probably very
insecure and shy. Stuck in your own little box,
you watch the world fly by as a loner. You dont
know your place. You seemingly dont have a
place in society or an interest. You are a very
capricious person, and are confused and
frustrated about where you belong. You crave
for the sense and feeling of home-but have not
obtained it yet.


What Kind of SOUL do you posses? (For Girls only) Incredible Anime Pictures!
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~*~

Do You Follow Your Heart or Your Head?

Cristal, you follow your heart when it comes to romance

Whether you planned it or not, you just can't help but follow your feelings when it comes to matters of l'amour. You're a passionate person who can't ignore things that fit you to a T — whether it's that perfect pair of jeans, a good cause, or the love of a lifetime.

Sure, things don't always go according to plan, but with an irrepressible drive like yours, you'd better get used to it! Living life as a fake just isn't in the cards for you. So open up your arms and embrace what life throws your way — especially if it happens to be the man of your dreams!

~*~

Your Subconscious Self
What's Really on Your Mind?

Cristal, your subconscious mind is most preoccupied with issues around your health

On a conscious level, you might already be aware that something is troubling you, or eating up a lot of time when it comes to your health. But it's also possible that thoughts and feelings about taking care of yourself have been preoccupying your subconscious mind — leaving you with nothing more than a general sense that things just don't feel 100% right in your life though you can't quite figure out why.

You may feel preoccupied with your health, or you may worry that your health could fail you. Perhaps you're afraid of falling ill or just seem to talk about health and wellness all the time.

Whichever feelings hold true, your test results indicate that right now, your subconscious mind is working overtime to resolve the issues confronting you in this area of your life — even if you don't feel aware of it.

However, you can learn easy ways to tap into your subconscious mind and discover the source of the issues that are preoccupying you.

Um. Yeah. Wow.

~*~

The Multiple Intelligences Test
Six Kinds of Smart

Cristal, you're smartest when it comes to social intelligence

You've got people smarts! Social intelligence refers to the ability to read other people and react appropriately. As a result, you probably have a pretty keen sense of others' motivations most of the time. It's likely that you can also spot the difference between what people say and what they really mean.

This understanding of behavior and human nature can help you go far. After all, it's been said that it's not what you know, but who you know that counts. And you have a way with people. Your social intelligence may manifest as having the gift for gab, being a top-notch networker, or an excellent listener and friend. However you put this intelligence to work, you're sure to be admired for an abundance of social know-how.

The fuck?

Pills can't kill this headache that I own.

A lot of work at... work today. I went from Hostess to Busboy in under an hour. Actually, I did a little bit of both, but it was mostly stuff as a busboy. Or as Erika says, a busgirl. I'm the only girl who is a busboy. Girl. It did get to a point where I had a lump in my throat, but that went away quickly and I got my little tip. Six dollars. I want to pierce my ears again. :D I'm going to try and keep looking for another job.

I dunno. I think the fact that I didn't feel anything when I got my ears done yesterday left me wanting more. More. MORE!

This just in: My parents just came from a car dealer and bought themselves a new truck. It's very nice. First thing I asked: How much was it?

David: $20,000

Everytime I hear a huge amount of money my heart sinks. I always think the same thing. "How can they waste that much like it's nothing?" Oh yeah. They gave me David's car. Most people around my age would be excited to get their own car (especially one that is GIVEN), but not me. I don't deserve it.

That mad cow.

Interesting day at work. I got paid. :D

I talked with this old lady. She stayed there for a long while because we were playing The Beatles and she seemed to like that. She talked MY head off. Heh. Some customers caught her stealing a little doll that was on display in one of the rooms. My stepdad confronted her, but I didn't see what happened. I avoid stuff like that. All I know is that he told her to get out (she owed them money from the last time she came). And uh... You know what? This isn't important. I was energetic all day. I got paid. I got my ears pierced (going to get more) and uh... just had a good day. All of that with a headache.

Huzzah.

Ha-HA!

Ah, something from the great Smoking Gun archives. The word "blumpkin" is not in the dictionary, but Howard Stern is thinking of making his own dictionary (if he hasn't yet). :D You know? This is all Janet's Boob's fault. Ever since her nip peeked, the FCC have been trying to play "hero" and censor a lot of shit that's been going on for years. They are only pissing people off. Like some at PvP.

Then there's these two morons. Oh, and THIS is great. This one still cracks me up, though. Like two Friday's ago at work, someone payed with a fake $100 and managed to get away with it. That night was so busy that I guess no one bothered to check to see if it was real. It looked like a 100-dollar bill, but it had the watermarks of a five-dollar bill. But a 200-dollar bill?

"WE LIKE BROCCOLI!" Fucking morons. Haha.

Congrats to my sweetie on his promotion. :)

Peeek-tures.

Ah. Here we go. I got a bunch of pictures here. They are really for Sin to see, but everyone else is welcome since it's the INTERNET and I can't really hide it from all of you. :)

Choose Your Life.

Erik sent me this. Check it out. It's great.

Oh, I am an idiotic-depressing-loveless-penniless-filthy-boring-junkie-pathetic-sickly cynic. :D

Oh and Jen, this is just for you! :)

Christ.

I don't know if it's my hormones or the fact that I have my period, but I've been very emotional since Monday.

As I type this, tears are burning down my face once again. I miss Kolin. I always do when he's not around, but these past few days have been bad. It feels like how it used to when he disappeared. I know, in the back of my mind, he's around and will get back to me soon, but for some reason... it hurts. All day I've been thinking about how good he is and how bad I am. I want to do something, but I don't know what it is. Why do I have to be such a girl? Oh well.

I have his words to keep me happy for now.

Ugh.

I ate a slice of pizza, a doughnut, 2 granola bars, a banana, a bowl of Doritos with cream, 2.24 sandwiches, two or three glasses of orange juice, and lots of water. This was all day and it's all I remember eating, but it feels like I ate more.

I want to throw up.

Like a FUCKING hawk!

Mari: Cristal, how long did it take for you and Kolin to get together?
Me: *watching TV* Uhh... a month or two.
Mari: Oh. Damn. So, what did he say, like... "Do you want to go out with me?" or...
Me: No, we just got together. He told me he liked me and I told him the same later.

(I'm suspicious at this point)

Mari: Oh. Okay. *leaves*
Me: *continues to watch TV*

Then, I see two kids outside. One of them I've never seen before. My sister goes out and then comes back in. "Dammit." She's goes into the kitchen and I ask, "Who the hell is that?"

Mari: Jeeze, hold on.
Me: o_O

She comes from the kitchen, starts to smile, and stares at me. I knew it then, but I still asked. "Who's that?"

Mari: Don't tell Mom, but...
Me: You're going out with him?
Mari: Yeah, he asked me out a few days ago, but I said yeah to him today. Don't tell Mom!
Me: Well, you're going to have to tell her soon. I won't, though.
Mari: Okay.

So yeah. My sister has her first boyfriend. I'm glad she told me, too. That means she trusts me. I won't tell my mother, but I will encourage my sister to tell her because my mother has told her that she can't be with anyone until she is 16. Ha. Plus, she kept her word and didn't tell my mother about Kolin when I asked her not to. For now, though... I will watch her like a hawk. I have to play the role of Big Brother since he isn't here. :)

Mari: We're not going to do anything, but yeah... I am with him.
Mari: *opens the door to go outside* But if he wants to kiss... nah-uh. He's going to have to wait.

That's my sister. :D She wears the fucking pants.

HOLY FUCK, these cramps are ugly. It's like two months worth of cramps in one setting. KILL THEM! I want to rip my legs out and beat myself with them. Ahhhhhrrrgh!

*gets hammer*

I TRIED to go to bed early. Actually... I DID! I forgot my pill today and had to get up earlier than usual (I was at work an hour early) so I was sleepy all day. I went to bed around 11:30 and I ended up waking up at 3 AM. I didn't have anything to do so I HTMLed a bit. Eh. I'm glad I don't have work today. Maybe.

love a loserr: did you sleep well?
I am Oxie Moron: Bah. I woke up at 3 AM. -_-
love a loserr: aww
love a loserr: well i have to go to school now
love a loserr: :-P
I am Oxie Moron: Not really, damn mosquito and THIS BLACK GIRL TOOK MY LUNCH!
I am Oxie Moron: Anyway, have a good day! :D
love a loserr: o_0
I am Oxie Moron: Dream. lol
love a loserr: Oh !!
love a loserr: haha
I am Oxie Moron: Heh heh. It sucked.
love a loserr: i need to brush my teeth but my dad is taking ages in the shower
love a loserr: was it scary? :-P
I am Oxie Moron: It was... annoying. Pissed me off.
love a loserr: why?
I am Oxie Moron: Made me feel used. She was being nice to me and I fell for it and in the end I was used.
love a loserr: hahha. i've beeen there

No one steals my sandwhich and apple juice. NO one. *frown*

Someone poke me with a needle.

I felt very unenthusiastic today. Well, I was alright at work. It was very slow so I left early. I got a ride from a co-worker since my stepdad had to continue in the restaurant. After that, I just felt bleh.

My mother wanted to go to the mall and since I didn't have anything to do, I went along. Well, I had to go anyway. Work tends to explode sometimes and they can call me in anytime. So, I went to the mall in my work clothes. We made a stop at my aunt's first to pick up some of our cousins. While waiting for them my mother and I got in another calm argument about what my sister wants to wear. My mother doesn't want my sister to dress the way that I do and is POSITIVE that she can make her into what she wants her to be. I told my mother, "Look at me. I didn't start wearing all-black clothing and spikes in one day. I did it little by little and that's how she's going to do it." She's still convinced that it won't happen. "She has to wait until she is 18 like you."

"Mom, I started to dress how I wanted at 14/15. You can't stop her."
"Yes, but she has to think about what the people will say."
"Mom, who CARES about the people? It's none of one's business how another dresses."
"Yes, but the people-"
"Look, if it were work, yes... of course you have to dress a certain way, but when it's on your own, in your own time, you should be able to dress however you like."
"I don't care. The people-"
"'The people' are stupid. It's not like she's doing drugs. Would you rather have her dress conservatively and do drugs? Appearance is nothing when it comes stuff like that. It's what you DO and not how you LOOK."

She knew she was wrong, but she HATES it when she is. If the sky is blue and my mother says it's yellow, then it's yellow. Anyway, at the mall... it was more dull there. I was oblivious most of the time. The kids would try and talk to me and I would respond with a nod. Rarely said much.

Patty: Look at all these Socials. I hate coming to the mall.
Me: Well, hanging out with your friend is being social.
Patty: I know, but these are SOCIAL Socials.
Me: I seee. -_-

I think she meant Preps. The Outsiders came to mind. Anyway, she's the type to be stuck in a stereotype. Heh. I spent most of the time outside the stores. While waiting for everyone else outside of Hot Topic three young cats came up to me and asked me for some change. They seemed to be hungry. Well, being me, if someone asks for some change and I have it, I will give it. I happened to have a couple of dollars of change. I think I gave four dollars worth of it. I just took out my little bag and dumped a bunch of coins in my hand and gave it away. Eh. I did need it. Sorta. But others need it more than I do. After they left I saw that my mother was buying my sister some Tripp pants. When she came out I told her, "Little by little..." She just looked at me and said, "Oh, those are just PANTS. I was talking about make up. I don't want her wearing raccoon eyes." Riiiiight. You dumb bitch.

We went from store to store and I waited outside through all of them. I was on the second floor looking down when some chick stood beside me and looked at me. I smiled and she smiled back, nodding her head, and I start thinking, "Umm... hmmm." Then she asked me if I listened to music...

"A little."
"That's cool. Do you play any instruments or have any friends who play any?"
"Uh, no. Sorry." I lied. Kinda.
"Oh well, there's this new store in Upland where you can-"

I just let her talk about her friend's new store and proceeded to give me a flyer. She asked me to tell anyone who would be interested and I assured her I would. I was, at least, polite to her. It was just funny how she tried to get my attention. After that, the kids got their ice cream, we went to a few other stores, then we headed home. FINALLY. I really wanted to go to Borders, though.

I still feel dull.

Awww.

Meg sent me these a few hours ago.


I guess that's Nanj saying, "This rocks." :)


Here they are, finally... NOT kissing.

And well... there's another one, but I'm not sure I should post it. Not unless... *thinks* No. I will leave this one for me. ;)

I ate too much fish.

Been a while since I posted anything.

I had Monday and Tuesday off from work since my stepdad has those days off, too. I believe on Tuesday morning I was chatting and camming with Keiron and a little with Meg. I'm glad you guys are having a blast. Just in case you don't know what I am talking about, Kieron is also known as Nanj and he's from Ireland. He has a girlfriend, Meg, and she lives in Pennsylvania. As luck would have it, Nanj got the privilege to meet up with Meg on Monday. It's been Cloud 9 for them ever since. He can only stay for a week in Philly, but he is coming back this summer and is staying longer. I am getting pictures soon. :D It was so sweet watching them together. I blushed a little when they kissed, though. I thought, "Man, don't they know I am still here? Watching?" Heh heh.

I thought I had Wednesday off since I didn't get a call to come in, but as soon as I was finally relaxing outside my home and enjoying the weather, I get a call from David asking me to come in as quickly as possible. I went in there and found out that there was no busboy to help the waiters and waitresses, so I was on my own. I had to deal with three rooms. Bringing in their salsa, water, and chips and clean their mess after they were done. I had to make trips around the whole restaurant asking people if they needed anything while checking if there was anything missing in my workarea. I went in at around six and I didn't get out until closing time (which was about 10). I was tired, but work is work! I made nineteen dollars for helping David and this other waitress, Karla. :)

Yesterday I took my sister to the library to return some books and then headed for Rite Aid to get some stuff. My grandmother found out about Kolin a few days ago. This weekend when I came home from work she looked at me and said, "Woow. You look great." She's never seen me all "dressed up." I told her I've been dressing like this (on and off) for a couple of months now. She says, "That's great. You look thinner and everything. You can get a boyfriend now. ;)" I think, "Riiiight." She hates my cargos and shirts. So, this Wednesday(?) she comes up to me and says, "They told me already." She gave me a small spank. I knew what she meant by that. I just laughed. This week seemed like a "Cristal, have you eaten anything yet?" type of week. I would either answer with a "yes" or a "not hungry right now; will eat later." And every time they would add a "Well, he's supposed to love you the way you are, you know." As if I am trying to starve myself for Kolin. Uh, no. I eat. I just eat alone. So, no one sees me when I do.

Mom: "Want some pudding?"
Me: "No, that's okay. Not hungry."
Mom: "C'mon. It doesn't have fat."
Me: "-_- I don't care about that, I just don't want some right now."
Grandma: "But your boyfriend should love you for you."
Me: "Yes, I know and-"
Mom: "Think of it this way: When it's cold you can be his blanket and when it's hot you can be his shade! Hahaha!"
Me: "Heh. Yeah."

So, now that my grandma knows, I am positive everyone else knows. I can't wait for the rest of the clan to start making fun of me. They don't know how to handle the fact that I have someone since it's never been an issue before. My grandma has already been trying to lecture me about online dating and such. I know I am risking myself, but so is Kolin. It's a two-way thing. I know it may not seem like it, but I know I have some confidence in me. No, I know I do. Somewhere. I just keep misplacing it. Sheesh.

I got a new pin today at work. I helped put up the St. Patrick's Day decorations and the pin I got says, "Kiss My BLARNEY Stone!" What does that even mean? I'm hoping Nanj could help me. I told my co-worker, "I better find out what this means soon or a customer will ask to kiss my whatever-it-is."

Edit: I don't like to type when I am tired. I make too many grammatical mistakes. I always come back and rewrite the whole damn thing.

@#$%!

If *I* don't get my period SOON... I will MAKE it come myself. Yes, bleeding fucking sucks, but do you know what happens when you're supposed to and you don't? Think about pregnant women.

Oh yeah.

Alabama Spiders

I just got a Forward.

A father watched his daughter playing in the garden. He smiled
as he reflected on how sweet and innocent his little girl was.
Suddenly she just stopped and stared at the ground. He went over to her
and noticed she was looking at two spiders mating.

"Daddy, what are those two spiders doing?" she asked. "They're
mating," her father replied.

"What do you call the spider on top, Daddy?" she asked. "That's
a Daddy Longlegs," her father answered.

"So, the other one is Mommy Longlegs?" the little girl asked. "No,"
her father replied. "Both of them are Daddy Longlegs."

The little girl thought for a moment, then she stomped them flat
and said "Well, it might be okay in California, Vermont and New York
but we're not having any of that crap in Alabama!"

These are so ADORABLE. I am more attracted to The Flu. I wouldn't pass up on Halitosis, though. :)

*crosses fingers*

Hoping Nanjor has a great flight and car ride on his way to Meg's. :) Also, just have fun, dammit. You promised pictures, Nanj. I will hunt you down for eternity if you don't give them to me.

They BURN!

It feels like fucking summer.

Heh. Jen. This is pretty cool.

1. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
2. How long have you known me?
3. When and how did we first meet?
4. What was your first impression?
5. Do you still think that way about me now?
6. What do you think my weakness is?
7. Do you think I'll ever get married?
8. What makes me happy?
9. What makes me sad?
10. What reminds you of me?
11. If you could give me anything, what would it be?
12. How well do you know me?
13. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
14. Do you think I could kill someone?
15. Describe me in one word.
16. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger, weaker, or staying the same?
17. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
18. Are you going to put this on your live journal OR Blog and see what I say about you?

I could answer all of these for... myself, but where's the fun in THAT?

Yeeeeeah.

I got back from work at 9:27 and took a shower. I stank of chips and salsa. Sooo... the second part of my work was the easiest. I was Hostess for the rest of the night. I loved the cards, but not the cash. Like I've said before: Me+Money=NotSoGood. :l

Anyway, I got to know this girl who trained me in the evening. She's 16. o_O She's really nice. Talks a tad too much, but it beats boredom. :) She talked about her guy and I talked about mine. I mostly sat the customers and gave them menus. Fun stuff. Beats working as a busboy. I have to do that tomorrow, anyway. Oh! I got paid after all. :D My stepdad convinced his boss to pay me. :) So yeah.

It was pretty crowded today. Two parties at the same time. Hell for my stepdad. Anyway, only two weird things. One: some guys asked me to take a picture of them in the morning and two: this dude who was very short, bald, and his scalp was full of veins came in and asked for "a reserved table for party of one." Oh yeah. He seems pretty... interesting. I liked that. Soooo... maybe not that weird. Also, the "boss" asked me to clock out at 8:50 PM, but I asked to clock out at 9:00 PM and he looked at me like, "Wha?" He let me, though. I told my stepdad and he's like, "No, noo. When he tells you to clock out, you clock out. Hahaha." Soo, whatever. Gah. First day, PEOPLE.

I go back again tomorrow. Paid. :)

During break...

My stepdad and I get a one-hour break. There's a party at the restaurant and well... I'm glad I am here. Too many people. :l

Anyway, so far... so okay. It was very dead today. I had to greet customers, take them to a table, give them a menu, and bring them chips, water and salsa. At the same time. -_- I hate carrying too much. I know I'm going to spill something soon. After someone was done I'd go over their table and clean it up. Then, I'd set it up for the next customers. I also learned how to take cash or credit. I like that better, but I suck at counting money. Anything math makes my brain freeze. I told my stepdad I'd rather clean on my hand and knees than serve people. I have to do what I have to do, though.

So, I am off to rest. First day wasn't bad, but more later.

I can't SLEEP.

I can never go to sleep when I need to. It's a pain. Well, I start training tomorrow. My stepdad or someone else is going to train me for two days (without pay) on how to carry around in the restaurant. That's right. A restaurant. A Mexican one at that. Imma be a busboy. Yeah, I am overqualified for this job (i.e. my A.A.), but I need money and well... I am an underachiver. Oh yeah. I aim low, kids.

Anyway, I'm not sure why, but I am not as nervous as I should be about tomorrow. It has to do with people and I get very nervous when it comes to that. Actually... before I went to bed I got a little anxiety and started pigging out and since that made me feel bad I had to make myself throw up. It hurt, too. My throat got burned from the pressure and acid. All of that tired me out and I tried to go to bed, but it didn't happen. So, maybe I am nervous, but then again... I am SUPPOSED to get my PERIOD soon! I hate being so fucking irregular. Blah.

This morning...

Grandma: Good moooorning.
Me: Good morning.
Grandma: How are you? (she actually said that)
Me: Fiiine. *eats bread*
Grandma: Hoy no se come carne, hija.
(You can't eat meat today, sweetie)
Me: *thinks: here we go again.*
Me: Oh well, tengo pan. (I have bread)

I haven't cared about eating meat or not on this specific day (or whatever) in so many years... if she weren't here I wouldn't have remembered, would have eaten meat, and gone to hell. -_- Ah, my Mexican Grandmother. Bless her.

Not so... well... yeah.

So everything is back to "okay" after that crap yesterday. My father called this morning. He came over to talk for a second and I ended up going to his home. It was quite early so I still hadn't taken a shower or cleaned the house, but I went anyway. I didn't care. He left me at a nearby swampmeet while he went grocery shopping. I bought a shirt two weeks ago and I liked it so much that I bought six more. All for $21, yo. I waited outside for a while before my father came around to pick me up.

Like I said, I went over his home for a couple of hours and we talked. I tasted some of his ceviche, but... his had fish in it. I am used to eating it with shrimp. It had a lot of shit that I didn't care for, such as... ONIONS. I don't like to eat those, but I did for him.

"Yeeah, I don't like onions."
"You don't?!"
"Nope." *eats ceviche on a tostada*

Heh. It was a good thing it was all drowned in lemon juice. Mmmm.

We also talked about religion (which I rarely do). He makes me feel comfortable when I ask questions. He knows that I believe in God, but I don't have a religion. As a matter of fact, I don't think he's sure what his religion is. Heh. It's good to know that we both have almost the same views on life. He doesn't make me feel as alone and as unwanted as my mother. He asked me if I could color a drawing that I had given him about three years ago. I had forgotten about it. That made me feel good. Then, he also asked if I could repair a picture of his father. :D I "finished" coloring the drawing, but I still have yet to start on my Grandpa. Might be fun. He brought me home after that.

As soon as we pulled up my home I saw a black truck and thought, "Grandma's here. Eeeeeh." I felt kinda embarrassed because the house wasn't clean. It was all good, though. She greeted me as always and after that my mother called. She didn't know my grandma was coming. I quickly gave Grandma the phone and made my way into my room. It's half my world. My other half is in Florida. Oh! I found out, this Sunday, that my stepbrother doesn't live in Miami, but in uh... G-something Park... or... let me check. Hmm... maybe not. Did I make that up? Ohhh boy. I think I am WAY off this thing, but I was told it was 20 minutes from Tampa. Oooh. I also see you guys have a street named Euclid. That's our main street in Ontario. :D I think I need to ask again. My memory fucking SUCKS. Anyway, it looks like Stepbrother is coming back to Cali since his mother is planning to come back too.

Okay, I got off topic. Uh... *rereads* Oh yeah! So, Grandma is here since she has an appointment with Immagration. It's funny how she tries to pronounce our Governor's name. "Ah-nold?" I say, "Yeeeeah, that's... good." It's even funnier when she tries to pronounce his last name. X) I tell her it's okay. Hardly anyone can. So, I leave you all with my drawing all colored up (click on it to see a larger size) and a picture of Hot Jude Law for Colette. ;)





Oh, and thanks for the song! I reeeeally love it. :D

It's all Meg's and Nanj's fault.

How evil are you?

I think I am back on my quiz binge. Hahaha. Barney. *shudder*

love a loserr: yello
I am Oxie Moron: Yoo
I am Oxie Moron: http://quizilla.com/users/jjofriends/quizzes/The%20slutcom%20litmus%20test/
love a loserr: whassat?
I am Oxie Moron: A quiz.
love a loserr: heehee. I am 0. :p
I am Oxie Moron: Me too. lol
I am Oxie Moron: You're such a prude.
love a loserr: well... I've only made out with Nicole a few times, and this one guy and I kissed a couple times. That's it.
I am Oxie Moron: Which is more than ME!
love a loserr: lol
I am Oxie Moron: I've never kissed anyone. :P
love a loserr: i'd kiss you if I was there (and if you were comfortable :-P)
I am Oxie Moron: lol Damn youuuu. That's Kolin's job. :P
love a loserr: lol. We can take turns :-P
I am Oxie Moron: Hahahaha. You'll have to ask him.
love a loserr: nooope. :p
I am Oxie Moron: Ho ho hooooo. :P Ha.
love a loserr: if I get there first there is no guarantees :-P
love a loserr: haha
I am Oxie Moron: Hear that KOLIN!!?!?!

I'd go to jail if I kissed her. Soo... no. No jail for me.