I'm thinking of changing my layout.

...

lol Naaaah. Too lazy.

Stolen from Inferno who stole it from someone else.

Bored out of my asssss.

Put an X where the statement is true. Simple. I like what you did with the side comments, Dante. I shall do it too.

[_] I NEVER HAVE BEEN DRUNK (A little)
[X] I NEVER HAVE SMOKED POT (Well... no)
[?] I NEVER HAVE KISSED A MEMBER OF THE OPPOSITE SEX (I have accidentally kissed my brother. On the lips)
[X] I NEVER HAVE KISSED A MEMBER OF THE SAME SEX (Nope. Not unless Jen gets me drunk :P)
[X] I NEVER CRASHED A FRIEND'S CAR (I hardly drive at all)
[X] I NEVER BEEN TO JAPAN (I want to check it out one day)
[_] I NEVER RODE IN A TAXI (I have... ages ago)
[X] I NEVER HAD ANAL SEX (Ouch. Christ)
[_] I NEVER HAVE BEEN IN LOVE (Heh)
[X] I NEVER HAVE HAD SEX IN PUBLIC (Hmmmm)
[X] I NEVER HAVE BEEN DUMPED (More like cheated. But it doesn't count)
[X] I NEVER SHOPLIFTED (I might have. I don't remember, but never on purpose)
[_] I NEVER HAVE BEEN FIRED (More like "let go." I was a temp.)
[X] I NEVER BEEN IN A FIST FIGHT (Not my thing)
[X] I NEVER HAD A THREESOME (Not planning on one... ever)
[X] I NEVER SNUCK OUT OF MY PARENT'S HOUSE (I don't have to sneak out. I just leave a note)
[X] I NEVER BEEN TIED UP (SEXUALLY) (Not... yet?)
[X] I NEVER BEEN CAUGHT MASTURBATING (Nope. I lock doors... try and keep quiet. Try)
[_] I NEVER PISSED ON MYSELF (I agree with Dante. All babies DO pee. We all have pissed ourselves)
[X] I NEVER BEEN ARRESTED (Nah)
[X] I NEVER MADE OUT WITH A STRANGER (Gaaay)
[X] I NEVER STOLE SOMETHING FROM MY JOB (How about "borrowed"? I don't steal)
[X] I NEVER CELEBRATED NEW YEARS IN TIME SQUARE (Never been out of California, 'cept to go to Mexico)
[X] I NEVER WENT ON A BLIND DATE (Never been on a date. Period)
[_] I NEVER LIED TO A FRIEND (I have, I guess)
[_] I NEVER HAD A CRUSH ON A TEACHER (I think I've only had one or two. I don't crush much if at all)
[X] I NEVER CELEBRATED MARDI-GRAS IN NEW ORLEANS (I don't care for it)
[X] I NEVER BEEN TO EUROPE (Plan to go one day)
[X] I NEVER SKIPPED SCHOOL (Only because I had nowhere to go and it was a time waster)
[X] I NEVER SLEPT WITH A CO-WORKER (Ugh. No)
[X] I NEVER HAVE BEEN FISTED AND/OR HAVE NEVER FISTED ANYONE (FUCK. NO.)
[X] I NEVER HAVE THROWN UP IN A BAR (Never been to a bar other than the one at work)
[_] I NEVER HAVE PURPOSELY SET A PART OF MYSELF ON FIRE (Shhhhh. It was the old me)
[X] I NEVER HAVE EATEN SUSHI (I tried. I spit it out. No... I guess I never have)
[X] I NEVER HAVE BEEN SNOWBOARDING (Don't care to do it)
[_] I NEVER HAVE BEEN HAPPY WITH MYSELF (Never is the word. I like myself once in a little while)
[_] I NEVER HAVE BEEN IN A COMMITTED/SERIOUS/LOVING RELATIONSHIP. (Well... I feel this is serious, but it could get more serious soon :D)

Whoa. Kolin, I DLed some Godhead and I found a Beatles cover they did. I was like :O! They do a great Eleanor Rigby. Love it.

Littlearth

I went to the mall this weekend and I saw some cool belts at Spencer's. I really wanted one, but I decided to wait it out. I, instead, looked at their website when I got home. I saw their purses and told myself, "Heeeey. This is where Meg got her cool purse." Yeah, they have neat shit. Not a lot, but neat.

So, I checked out their stuff. I still hesitated to buy anything (I don't even have a card). I requested for a catalogue instead. Hell, it was free. I think this was a few days ago and I forgot all about it until I got it in the mail today. I reeeeeeeeally want those belts now. I want the Vintage Soda Cap Belt, but since it's more expensive... I am going to try and get the PinBelt. It's only $28+. And you can replace all the pins with your own. Or maybe I should just get both and use this 10% off cupon they gave me. Heh. I forgot I had it. Blah.

I also like the Beer Cap and Digital Download Cap Belts.

$45 on my desk.

Had to. Keloids have been forming and well... fuck. It's going to be there forever, I suppose. I'll see. Grah. I want to get it done again and I will unless I am told otherwise. Some people just can't have their cartilage pierced and I believe I could be one of them. I hope not. If so, I will have to find some other place to get pierced that is NOT my face. I'll just have to go somewhere more professional next time. Costs more, but it's worth it. I swear I will pierce my fucking hand myself. I need metal in me. I seriously crave the needles.

And no. I will not get it done THERE or THERE. Or there. No.

Eeeeeeeee.

I gotta have these.

And the DVDs too. DAMN MONEY!

Ah. Memories.

Been up for a while reading very old posts from What Did You Say?

Only the older posts are the best. Such as...

Trikz4kidz: AREYOUHOTT
Zephyrous Dream: AREYOUSTUPID?
Trikz4kidz: YEAH
Trikz4kidz: HOW DID YOU KNOE
Zephyrous Dream: I KNOW IT ALL.
Trikz4kidz: YEAH SO ARE YOU
Zephyrous Dream: Sigh. Leave now, before I kill you.
Trikz4kidz: IGHT
Trikz4kidz: LATWE

love a loserr: OMG.
I am Oxie Moron: ?!
I am Oxie Moron: You won?
love a loserr: I was sucking on a pen
love a loserr: and its stuck ion my braces
love a loserr: LOL, no.
I am Oxie Moron: Gasp!
I am Oxie Moron: lol!
I am Oxie Moron: Can't get it out?!
love a loserr: no!
love a loserr: its stuck in one of my bars!
I am Oxie Moron: OH shit!
I am Oxie Moron: Check in the mirror to see how bad it is, but first..
I am Oxie Moron: TAKE A PICTURE!
love a loserr: LOL!
love a loserr: never!
I am Oxie Moron: C'MON!
I am Oxie Moron: GOD, I can like post it in my blog!
I am Oxie Moron: >;-)
love a loserr: neverrrrrrrrrrr
I am Oxie Moron: AWWW!
I am Oxie Moron: It's a great moment!
love a loserr: it's bound to happen again :p
I am Oxie Moron: lol I bet
love a loserr: I GOT IT OUT!!!!!!
love a loserr: woohooo
I am Oxie Moron: WOO!
I am Oxie Moron: God, that is some funny shit.
love a loserr: haha

L0giKal DisaSta: im horny and hard...u wanna talk?
I am Oxie Moron: I'm angry and sick...u wanna leave?
L0giKal DisaSta: huh?
I am Oxie Moron: That's right.

RejectedOne4U: 21 m ny bondage freak here
I am Oxie Moron: Good to know.
RejectedOne4U: wanna wear a dog collar and suck my cock
I am Oxie Moron: I pass.

TANZEELAHMED: HI
I am Oxie Moron: Hey
TANZEELAHMED: A/S/L
I am Oxie Moron:19 f
TANZEELAHMED: OK
TANZEELAHMED: COOL
I am Oxie Moron: Yeah, I bet.
TANZEELAHMED: UR NAME PLZ
I am Oxie Moron: Y PLZ
TANZEELAHMED: MEANS
TANZEELAHMED: U DONT WANA TELL UR NAME
I am Oxie Moron: NO, I DONT WANA TELL MY NAME
TANZEELAHMED: K UR CHOICE
TANZEELAHMED: U ALS
TANZEELAHMED: PLZ
I am Oxie Moron: ALS?
TANZEELAHMED: YAH
I am Oxie Moron: WAT IZ DAT?

TMDATCD: Care to cyber I am tall blonde dark complected blue eyes football build.
I am Oxie Moron: I am a short (very short) man. So...no.

Ah, where did all the idiots run off to?

:l

Hollyweird.

Well, not really. Not for me, anyway. My sister had pestered us about going down to Hollywood for a couple of weeks now. She wanted to see the Hollywood Walk of Fame crap. Oh and the Hollywood sign, of course. She got excited when we passed by it. As I was looking at it I thought, "And people wanted to paint the American flag on it. Patriotic bullshit." We walked for a while looking at shit. A lot of tattoo shops, I tell you. Museums too. We passed by the Hollywood Wax Museum, Guinness World of Records, and Ripley's Believe It or Not. We decided to eat something before we went inside anything first. We were hella hungry. We passed by the El Capitan Theater while looking for a place to grub, too. That Home On the Range movie was on and everyone working there were dressed as farmers/cowboys. We looked for a while before deciding on a Mexican restaurant. So typical. In front of this restaurant was the Mann's Chinese Theater. Anyway, I had nachos. Mmmmmm. I haven't had some in years. Missed them. I felt nauseous after I ate them, though. I was staring outside from the second floor of the restaurant towards the theater and watching all the tourists. There were a lot of characters there too. Batman, Superman, Gandalf... Darth Vader. Too many to mention, but it was fun to watch, I guess. They were messing with people and such. I told my sister, "If one of them touches me... I am going to spike them."

We finished eating and went outside to check out the footprints from previous celebs. My feet are pretty much the same size as Michael Keaton's feet. My sister really wanted to see Shirley Temple and spent a good while looking for it, but too many people were on the damn cement and well, it was probably not there. I loved The Marx Brothers. :D The biggest feet I saw there were... Donald Duck's. Yeah. We looked at more stuff after that before deciding to go into the Kodak Theater. A lot of stairs. It's nothing really. Just another damn mall. There was one of those "make your own teddy bear" stores, though! Imma go in there one day. Been wanting to for a while. More walking. Everytime my mother would see some "punk" or "goth" she would point it out and say, "Hey Cris, one of your people." Time after time, I would tell her... "Not my people. I have no people." She thinks it's funny. Always does that.

Her: Well, you're like Kolin, no?
Me: Yeah, that's different, though.

And it is. Eh. While walking up the street I saw a crowd and went over to check it out. There were some breakdancers. It was cool. I didn't want to leave, but the FA-MI-LY wanted to keep going. Fun shit. We headed to the wax museum after that. It was alright. I saw Pamela Anderson and I asked my stepdad, "Her tits that big? Is she that small?" Well, if it's an "exact" replica of her... she is short. While going through the Horror Films section, my mother and sister kept walking slowly and behind my stepdad and I. Hell, it took a while for anyone to even go in. I was like, "God," and walked in. It was neat. Cheap blood and such. Yeah, I was kinda cautious just in case some worker was there to scare the visitors, but nothing like that happened. It was funny how my mother, sister, and stepdad kept pushing me in every time we went into a different room. Nothing happened at all. Only a fucking clown popped up. Whatever. To tell you the truth... the statues were crap. Sometimes it didn't even look like the damn actor. There were even some spanish celebs in there like Celia Cruz, Vicente Fernandez, and of course... Cantiflas. Overall it was alright. My favorite was Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles. I loved Charlie Chaplin, though. Eating a shoe. Mmmm. And for some reason... they had Mario in there. Yeah, that's right. Mario Mario from the Mario Brothers. I don't remember much except when we left there was a Charlie Chaplin impersonator outside. That was awesome to see.

Ack. So, after that we went straight into the Guinness museum. Takes a long time to go through all of it. Most of the shit was awesome. While walking though I was playing with my sister's slinky (had been all day) and I went over towards a group of men that were watching some shit on the TV. I just stood there messing with my slinky while watching whatever was on. One of the men next to me looked at me, I smiled, and he turned away. Then he turned to look at me again and looked away. Then again for the third time and said, "A slinky!" Acted like he'd never seen one before. Interesting stuff in there. Like there was this man that sat on a column for 45 years until his death or how this man was struck by lightning seven times and was never killed. He ended up taking his own life because his love rejected him. Kinda sad to watch a picture of that man smiling big and knowing he died miserably I skipped the sports section. I saw the smallest woman ever. She was the size of my teddy bear. And the tallest man? Good God. I think I went up to his waist. Tall-ass motherfucker. Big head and hands too. Imagine how big his... Oh, there was this thing were you can weigh yourself. It was some balance thing. On one side there was the heaviest human that ever lived and on the other side there was a scale for anyone to get on it. All of us got on it and we all weighed around 700 pounds. Not even close to that man. My mother weighed herself, weighed around 200 pounds, and I could tell that she was really hurt. When my stepdad told me I didn't say anything. I had a little flashback. It was when she found out that I weighed 200 pounds and went running over to my aunt's house to tell her. That pissed the fuck out of me. Embarrassing. Probably made her feel better that her daughter weighed more than she did. Whatever. I could have been dramatic about it and said, "TWO-HUNDERED POUNDS! DAMN!" But I didn't. I, instead, got up on the scale and weighed myself. It read 224. I went :o. I've weighed 230-35 since I was 15 and well... yeah. Not a big deal. I hope that made my mother feel better.

More stuff to watch and see. It was fun. We skipped Ripley's since it was already around 8 after we left Guinness. It was time to go home. While walking up there, my stepdad mentioned, "Ooooh, look at the guy staring at Cris."

Me: Shut up, man. He wasn't staring at me. I am playing with a damn slinky. Anyone will stare.
Him: Yeah right. Hahaha.
Me: I get stared at anyway, so whatever. -_-

I really don't get why. I'm not that different from anyone else. Yeah, they (family) are always doing that "Ooooh" shit. It gets old after 15-fucking years.

I wanted to make a stop at Borders, but the 'rents were tired and my stepdad promised he'd take me tomorrow. So, he better. I want my Slinky.

My allergies are coming. Damn Spring. I've had them since yesternight. All day at work I was sniffling and sneezing. My nose turned Santa Red from rubbing a napkin on it. Itchy bitch. I still am. My skin started to break out too. It's kinda different than my regular shitty acne, though. It itches. My ears itch. My body itches. My cheeks are red from scratching. I better stop, too. I always make myself bleed somehow. GRAAAAAAAAAH. *scratches*

Today... today.

Nothing today. Worked. Uh, did... laundry? Jesus. My mother took me out driving again. It went well. She wasn't nervous at all. Almost got hit by some fucking moron, though. Oh yeah. My mother lost the phone and we spent 20 minutes looking for it. I used to locator button, but that didn't work. Then we decided to call our phone and it took us a while before someone answered it. My mother quickly gave me her cell phone and I asked who ever it was speaking where they lived. I've been living in Ontario for almost seven years and I still don't know the street's numbers well. She said 1362 and I am 1366. Took me a while to realize it was my next door neighbor (from our left) who had it. She said she found it on the street. Hmmmm. Anyway. Yeah.

God, that was the most exciting thing all day. Pretty sad. :)

Okay.

I slept for a little over 12 hours and Brain tells me that I am still tired and need sleep.

I need a long Q-tip to poke THE SHIT OUT OF HIM!

So, this is what it feels like.

My brother came over this morning (yesterday). I was half asleep, half awake when he pounded the hell out of my door. I quickly got up and gave him a hug. He came over to return Mari's Kingdom Hearts game and to lend me The Sims. He knew that I wanted to buy that game back in 2000, but he managed to talk me out of wanting it. I never bothered to get it ever since. And well... I like it, but it's... boring. Eh. Or maybe I am. Anyway, he didn't stay long. I was excited to see him, really. He showed off his new stuff and brought his girl along too. He had to leave, though. I knew he had too in case my mother came home, but a part of me wanted him to stay longer. The need didn't hit me until he left and I was once again alone at home. I really, truly felt lonely. My heart sank and a lump on my throat formed. I wished he had stayed and hung out with me for a while. I kinda miss that.

Anyway, my father called me again this morning to say "happy birthday." He forgot it was my birthday. Again. Heh. He never remembers my birthday (or any birthday), so it doesn't hurt. I got used to it. I don't bother to remind him, either. It just makes him feel bad. My brother reminded him, though. I felt miserable through most of the day. Especially when my father came by my home to bring me my present. I wanted to cry after that. How fucking shitty. I wanted to slap myself for feeling that way.

It will pass. It always does.

Not so bad.

Ahhh. Uhm, let's see. Not much today. Hmmm. lol Oh yeah. My aunt, grandma, mom, dad, and brother called me today to wish me a great birthday. I woke up kinda late, so I only had time to clean a bit and get ready to go out with my family. Eileen couldn't come. When I went to visit her yesterday she asked, "So, how was the dinner?" I told her that it was on Tuesday and not on Saturday... so yeah. Miscommunication. And then I called Sin to tell her what time we were leaving, but she couldn't come either because her mother was still at work. Yeeeah. I was pretty bummed out and I didn't feel like doing much after that.

Anyway, my sister, Mother, David, and I went to Black Angus (never been) and ate a... a lot? It didn't seem like it, but it sure FELT like it. My mother insisted on me getting a drink. I didn't really care to, but I did anyway. I got some Kahlua shit. It was bad, but I did feel a buzz after a while. It had too much sugar and I hadn't eaten anything that morning, so the drink went quickly to my head. My mother knew the waitress there, so she didn't "card" me. Anyway, I got my "cake" too. It was a brownie cake topped with ice cream. And one candle. So, the family told me to make a wish and my mother proceeded to make fun of me.

Mom: *pretending to be me* "Oh pleeease, PLEASE bring Kolin here as soon as possible! Pleeease."
Me: Oh, mooooom.
Mom: Heh, that's what you want. You know it.

Heh. At least they had a good laugh. I am not good at making wishes. My ADD kicked in when I blew out the candle. The desert was good, but I couldn't eat it all. We all went to Dave and Buster's after that to play for a while. On the way there I was feeling very nauseous. I get carsick, but since I ate too much (burger, fries, cake) I was about to blow chunks. I came close, but avoided it. My sister and I played around for a while. I got to play Galaga! I haven't played that game in ages. Ah, brings back good memories. I miss that game. I never did well, but I loved playing it.

We went home after that. I layed down for a while since I was still full from the food (I can still feel most of it in my throat). Then I went online to find all the "Happy Birthdays" from YOU guys! Thanks so much. :) My sweetie sent me what I thought was two cards (no one has sent me that many in one day before) and I thought that was it, until I saw that there were four more. I went :O. I loved them all. As corny and as dorky as they were... I loved them.

So, right now, it's just me and my tequila. Cheers. :)

Sin the Hacker...

Mua ha ha... Yeah I "hacked" my way in here to post your Birthday card. :D Hope you don't don't get mad. LOL It's not all that great but it's the thought that counts RIGHT?


Anyways here it is.

2 AM Boredom.

Seriously. Jen and I must have been bored because out of nowhere we started playing with our make up.





Check it out here. :D

What a great way to start my 21st birthday. (Thanks for the card, Colette!)

(insert random title here)

So. Mom is mad at David once again. I'm not sure why, but I am betting it's because he was going out to play soccer with his friends. If it IS that... she's fucking stupid. That man rarely goes out, for the love of Mike. Why can't people just... graah. It's fucking ridiculous to make a big deal out of something small. I didn't want to be home and my sister wanted some Starbucks, soooo... we went walking to the nearest one we could get to. Which is about 30-45 minutes away. It was fun. We sat around for a few seconds before heading out. It was around 6:30. While waiting to cross the street, my sister and I started to hear some screaming and being HUMAN... we turned. It was two guys in some van screaming at us. I guess they were trying to get our attention or some shit.

"The hell?"
"Mari, don't turn. Ignore them."

Then, after that I started thinking, "Maybe I dropped something or had something on my ass." Oh well.

Half way there I decided to go over Eileen's home and check how she and her mother was doing. I was so glad they were there. It was like a 30 minute walk there. I don't think I've ever been to someone's home without telling them first. We just "talked" for fifteen minutes and then left because it was getting dark outside. It's a 30-45 minute walk from her home to mine. We got home close to 8 PM so it was pretty dark outside. Night was great, though.

Mother was there and asked us where we went (we told her we were going to the store), so I told her I went to see Eileen. I didn't tell her about Starbucks because it's pretty far from home and she would have said something stupid about that. Like always.

Feelin' WAY too damn good.

My sweetie called me tonight. I haven't heard his voice in... well, it's been too long. I missed him. He hadn't called me in a long while, but with damn good reason. It's always euphoric to hear him. I didn't say much, either. I wanted to take in anything and everything he was saying. I fall in love with him every day like it was the first time I realized that I did. It's amazing. I love him so much.

Soo, we were talking and he told me that he gets time off from work in January and if all goes well, he might come and see me for a week. :) It's almost a year since we've met too. If I remember correctly it was right around the time I had just turned 20. Sooo, yeah. End of April or beginning of May. I forgot. :P

I love you!

*clucks*

Ahh. Good day at work. I DID NOTHING. So to speak. And I got paaaaaaaaaid. Woo. Oh! My boss wants me to do something for him on the side and yes... I will get paid. :D Just easy, but tedious shit. Mmhmmm.

Let's see... on the way home from work I asked my mother to take me to Don Roberto's to get my ears done again and since we were going to be there she asked me if I wanted earrings as a birthday present. I looked at her and asked her, "How about a piercing instead?"

Mom: What is that?
Me: *points at ear*
Mom: Estas loca!
Me: *laughs*

I was half kidding. But I asked her for some shoes instead. I needed shoes badly. So, we went to Don Roberto's first and while there one of the girls there recognized me from the last time I went. I went up to this lady and I asked her to pierce my ears and she looked at me and said, "We only do ear lobes." I looked at her like, "uhhhhh.." But I told her, "Yeah, that's what I want." I know where to go if I wanted to get my cartilage done. So, while she was piercing my ears she noticed the safety pin in my ear and went, o_O. Ha. Then the other workers there went, "Whoa, did that hurt?" and "How can I do that?" I've been doing this for years. My sister got her ears pierced too. She was bitching about them.

"Stop bitching. It doesn't even hurt."

She just gave me a "well you like PAIN" look.

After that, we went to the shoe store to buy me shoes. I really have been wanting some green Chucks, but they didn't have them in there, so I got black. I haven't owned a pair of black Chucks in years and I thought it was about time. It started raining hard after we left the store and Mom and I ran out of there towards the car, but when my came out she screamed and stayed near the outside of the store. She had recently straightened her hair. My mom and I laughed our asses off and it seemed that one of the workers from the store had seen the whole commotion. He was laughing too. She eventually said, "Fuck it." And came running.

Sooo... good times.

MOTHERFUCKER. YOU ARE LUCKY I DIDN'T FUCKING BITE YOUR HEAD OFF, YOU PIECE OF SHIT. YOU ARE NOT THE ONLY ONE WITH STRESS, SHITHEAD. I HAVE THE WHOLE STAFF ON MY ASS ALL NIGHT, SO SHUT THE FUCK UP.

Hmmm. That's my PMS talking. Glad I got that out. Sorta. There's always tomorrow. I should eat.

Damn you and your quizzes, Meg. :P

You Have a Shy Pussy!

Your pussy's never seen daylight - let alone a guy.

Your pussy is more than virgin, it's pathologically shy!

Start slowly, letting a geeky guy suck it.

Before long, you'll let everyone fuck it.



What Kind of Pussy Do *You* Have?

More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva

Christ, I'm bored.

DUDE! So AWE-SOME. SHYEEAH!

Heart bubbles are coming out of my head. *pop*

I love you, Teddy. :)

I REALLY need Family Guy somethings.

Which Family Guy character are you?

*worried*

Ugh. It's getting worse. Fuck. I have to get better. I can't afford a trip to a clinic and/or hospital.

Goddamn this shit.

I-C-K

I felt like shiiiiite all day. You know that fever feeling? Well, that's how I felt, only I don't have a fever. My body hurts and I have very bad nausea. It was hard to clean and build stuff for my mom today. I had to ask my stepdad to come in and help me put some pieces together. I got dizzy trying to build that shit. I like building stuff sometimes, though. So yeah. I tried to get some sleep this evening, but it didn't work.

I did get a little better, but it seems that it's an on and off thing.

Oh, today Steeeeevie (a kid that lives down the street) asked me to go to the movies with him. Ha. He's 15 or 16. Anyway, I know it's nothing because he had asked Sarah (girl next door) to go with him a few months ago. He's just a friendly kid. Like today while I was outside calling for my sister he called me over to Sarah's house and wanted to show me is Elvis dance. I hesitated, but I said, "This better be good!" So, I waited and he proceeded to do his "Elvis" dance. Heh. He's a funny kid, but I pretended like I wasn't impressed. Then he did some ass-shimmy thing and I asked him, "Wait, isn't that Beyonce?" And he turns around and says, "What? Beyonce? That's no-" Then he did it again.

"Oh yeah, it is."

Then he started doing some faggy moves on me, I pushed him away, and asked me if I wanted to see him dance like the Backstreet Boys and I spit out my ice tea. That made the girls laugh. I then asked him, "Is that all?" And then went back home. I've always loved that kid. He's very funny.

Ahh... damn stomach.

SIN.

YOU. Hey. Come over on my birthday. We're going out to eat (not sure where yet) and I am only inviting you and an old friend. And then after... we can get drunk courtesy of moi, Cristal @ 21. :D

Heeey. That sounds like a good restaurant/club. Cristal @ 21. Anyway, let me know. :)

Yeeeeah. I could have emailed you, but... I don't know your new one and I forgot your Hotmail name. Grah.

The date gets closer to when he's going to come here and well

... I never hear from him again.

Hahaha. Yeah, online dating is risky. I've joined those online-dating dealies years ago (due to boredom) and all I would receive was emails from thirtysomethings. You know... I never took myself out of those things. :l I should do that now.

Anyway. It's hard stuff. First of all, pictures can be deceiving. In my case, my face looks clearer in webcam pics. I have a skin problem and have had to deal with it for many years now. It's getting better, though. I don't break out as much as I used to. Only ones who know how I really look like in real life are the ones who have seen me in person. So, in here... Sin and my cousin, Johnny, are the only ones who I can't lie to. ;) Kidding. I don't lie. Or... do I?

Sorry Kolin. :P

Anyway, personality is all me. I think I am worse in person. Right, Sin? Sinny Sin-Sin. I can be rather annoying and... retarded. But it's all in good fun!

Woo.

I found a taping for the show we went to, Sin. I tried DLing it, but it's making me DL other shit and well... I don't wanna. So, this is for you. :) I know you care about this more than I do.

Hahahahaa. I found this in a forum.

I would like to ask all the poeple who are attending the APC tour presented by Fuse.......DONT FUCKING MOSH...NO SLAMDANCEING...NO CROWD SURFING...jst be humans and not monkeys we all are there for the show apc's song are not to push people around there hear so we can enjoy the music,insted of rubbing up aganst some sweaty dude....PLUS IF YOU DO GET MEAN AND PUSH .........MY BROTHER IS WORKING SECURITY SO YOU WILL GET THROWN OUT I MEAN IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

XD!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I know there's some pictures out there, but I couldn't find any. I don't care enough to continue.

Ah. Here we go again.

I had taken a bunch of quizzes, but I took them all out. Stupid shiiiiiiet. Anyway, new PoA pictures. :D Crookshanks looks adorable. He looks like a Persian.

Why do I even take these? I was headache free for... 1.7 days until now. I was out of it at work today. My eyes couldn't stay open. My birthday is in eleven days and I am still not sure what's going to happen. I really don't want to make a big deal about it. I asked my parents if we were doing nothing and they decided on taking me out to dinner and to invite Sin and Eileen. So, Sin... come. :) Probably going to Acapulco. It's getting old, huh?

To tell you the truth, I just want to get drunk. Pissed drunk. Out-of-my-ASS drunk. I want to throw up and wake up next to the toilet. Yeeeeeeah.

APC.

I'm feeling better now. The headache is gone. THANK GOD FOR CHOCOLATE! I think I ate too much of it. Anyway, this is how it went.

Sin came over my home earlier than expected and caught me still in bed. I waited for David to leave for work before I got up to get ready. An hour later we left and headed for her house to pick up her little sister. Sin wanted to go to Walmart. We ended up going to Target, though. Target roooooocks. Anyway, we bought stuff (I got chocolate) and went back to Sin's house to wait for her brother and sister. I laid on the floor and watched Shrek while my little cousin bounced on my back and ass. That hurt. :P It was 4:30 and Sin's mother was still at work, but in order to beat traffic, we left. 45 minutes to an hour later we arrived at the stadium. As soon as we parked and got out of the car we saw this looooong line outside. Sin and I got in line quickly. I still questioned the "Early Entrance" tickets that we had, but Sin went to ask someone while I saved our place in line just in case. She came back and motioned me to come with her. We got in another shorter line. There was some contest going on near the entrance of the stadium "brought to you by KROQ." -_- The prize was floor tickets. One of the contests involved drinking a gallon of milk and throwing it up. Anyway, we waited for a while trying not to fall asleep. A dude came by a while ago asking those who had early entrance tickets to come with him. We followed him into another line and shorter than the second one. Anyway, a security let us in to get searched. Because of this, I didn't bring shit with me. Just my lip gloss. I got searched, everything went well until this little security guard there mentioned my safety pin (it's one of those sorta-big ones) and then asked me if it was sharp and blah, blah, blah. I had to take it off and give it to Sin. Seriously, these people had no idea what was going on. They would send us from one place to another and then some other person would tell us we couldn't be there. Ha. We got in line.. again, to get our wristband. We went BACK in the other line and got searched agaaaain. Grah. I laughed the second time because the lady grabbed my ankles. That tickled. Anyway, we got our shit together and went inside.

Sin and I looked at the merchandise before we got in another line to get on the floor. We walked towards the front of the floor and I said to Sin, "We're going to be up in the front agaaaain?" I didn't like it. Anyway, people started running up for the front and Sin suggest that we should, but I refused. I laughed. "We're going to get there eventually." Sin ran towards the front without me and I proceeded to walk. We all had to sit on the floor. My feet were getting numb from sitting and waiting for the show to start. I am going to say this: I am not really much of a concert person. Especially when it's big. I rather see a small band in a small venue. :) Anyway, we waited. I noticed these two girls there were getting anxious. I will refer to them as B1 and B2. They kept getting closer to where we were. Anyway, no idea what happened, but as soon as people got up it was like... "Ahhhh... I want to be the closest!" Oh yeah. These people were desperate. One of the girls (B1) was trying to elbow me, but I wasn't going to have it. Sin didn't give in either. As I recall, some chick said, "Damn it's just music!" and the other girl (B2) called her a bitch or something. Hahahaha. I laughed. It was very hilarious. I mean, it isn't just music, but... to me it is JUST about the music. I don't give a fuck about being closer to the stage. I don't get star struck. If I see fucking Maynard on the street I would just look and keep doing what I was doing. He's just a person with a voice. He rocks, but... I wouldn't die for him. Anyway, after a lot of pushing and shoving I told myself, "I am going to let them have it. I already got a chance to be up front." I moved a back a little bit and let B1 and B2 get up front. I thought, "Great, I am stuck with the fanatic chicks." We waited for 30 minutes before The Mars Volta took the stage. Oh... I was surrounded by a lot of the TMV fans, BTW. -_- Eh. I tried to keep an open mind about this band. I didn't know them well and I wanted to give them a chance. They bore me. They remind me of fucking At The Drive-in. I don't know how, but they do. I went along, though. Live music is awesome. I wanted them to go away, though. I was there for APC. People started smoking it during TMV, too. I didn't give a shit. I hate the smell of ganj, but... fuck it. After TMV left the crowd started to get even more anxious and impatient. Oh yeah. Being crushed is something I've never felt before. I don't like people touching me, but yesterday... I had to get over that. I was being touched everywhere.

Lights went down. I got crushed more. Wooo. I kinda liked it. People smoked more. Hahaha. So, they started out with Vanishing like they did last time. It was great. I just let it all out and went along with everyone. That's all you could do without getting stomped on. I loved it, though. I didn't care who was hitting me or touching me. Though, B1 had big hair and I was eating it during the show. I thought, "Dude, lay off the fucking Aqua Net. Jebus." Haha. Great, great. During the show, I was crushed, groped, grinded(?) (front and back), stoned (a bit), and choked. I also gagged a bit. Hahaha. The hell? I hate sweat. I am a bit allergic to it and I was drenched in my own fluid. It seemed that everyone who tried to surf over the crowd ended up on my fucking head. Out of ALL THE fucking people, why did I have to get a shoe on my face? Seriously. It wasn't a small place. I would push them off me when I had the chance to move my arms. When A Stranger started to play I saw that Sin asked to get out and they lifted her over the rail. After TMV left, I told myself if she left I would too. I waited it out for a while before I asked to get the fuck out. Reason was because these two guys were elbowing me in the neck and face. My legs were cramping, shaking, and giving in, too. I also didn't want to suffocate, so I left. It was hard to get me out. I am fucking HEAVY, but I was really smushed in there. I asked a security to get me out. While I was trying getting out, I elbowed B2 in the face. Sweeeet. Also, when another security guy tried to help me out, I smacked him in the face. Hahahahaha. I screamed at him, "I am fucking STUCK! My legs are fucking stuck!" The pressure from the people behind me made it harder for me to get out and I was too weak to help myself. He told the other people to get my legs unstuck while I screamed at him, "Get me the fuck out!" Then when I was out I told him, "Get me the fuck down! Let me the fuck down!" I pushed him off me and walked it off. I ended up getting a bruise on the upper part of my knee. So, it wasn't bad at all. I can't stop smiling about this. I later found out why Sin got out. She was being groped, but it was the gum being smeared on her pants that made her want out. I don't blame her.

After I walked off, I was disoriented a bit. All that smoke really did it. X) I can't stop laughing about that. I walked around the stadium. I didn't know where I was going, but I found the lobby. I stood next to a column and relaxed there. I wanted water and so I asked around and went up stairs and found a water fountain. I drank a shitload of water and washed my face in there. After that I found some stairs nearby and sat there for a while. Whoa, I can still smell the pot. XD Nah. It wasn't bad. I get tripped out easily, though. Weak. So, I sat there for a while and sang my ass off. I didn't care about the people who stared at me. I was tired, though. Some guy saw me and told me, "Awww, don't be sad." I told him I wasn't sad and went back to singing. After APC brought out some of the band members from TMV, I got up and went back to the lobby. I decided to wait for Sin there. Judith ended, I saw Sin, and I went over to her and gave her a little hug. We decided to get out instead of waiting around. She told me about how after she got out she went up stairs into the balcony and saw that there was a mosh pit right behind where we were. I was like, "What? Moshing at APC?" I laughed my ass off. I don't know why. I guess I see APC as a mellow band, and they are, but the fans aren't. :P Sin also told me that a lot of people were smoking pot around us. She saw lots of clouds. So yeah, we had a blast. It was rough for me, but woooooo. Felt great. I don't think I want to do that again. I rather be somewhere in the back with the mellow folks. Those are my kind of people.

I got home and went online to read some of the reviews. Funny stuff. I tried to go to bed, but I wasn't feeling too well. I tried watching TV, but that didn't help so I went back online. As soon as I got out of bed, I felt a nasty chill around my body. I changed clothes and put on a sweater. That didn't help much. I still had a headache, so I went into the kitchen and took four Ty. I am still sore, sick of chocolate, and tired, but I loved a lot about yesterday. The good and the bad. Sin, let's do it again. :D

I might have forgotten a lot of stuff. Sin has a better memory than I do.

Haaaaaaa.

I'm still stoned. X)

I'm a grandmother now.

My sister told me this morning that she saw some eggs in my birds' little home.

Finally all that fucking Jasper and Sam have been doing is finally over.

Me: Damn birds. I don't need anymore. Imma eat the babies.
Sister: :O You're sad.

She said she saw 2-5 eggs in there. Woo.

I don't feel like blogging.

All I did was clean and watch Finding Nemo. I took my sister and our next-door neighbor our for some ice cream and a long walk. I took my stereo with me (put it in my backpack) and blasted Alice in Chains through the streets. Neighbors found four baby kittens in the gutter. Animal control was closed. Had a talk with mother. Actually, all I told her about was how I have thinking problems.

"Why do you think you have problems?"
"You have no reason to think that you do."
"You don't have to worry about bills, or kids, or going to work."
"THAT'S when you will have problems."

She was just describing herself. I do have bills, though. Three of them. All of them ranging from $90-$140. I also have a job that I worry about because I am not doing well in there and I am not getting enough hours. And no, I don't have kids, but I do have my sister and I worry about her. So, she's wrong. But I couldn't tell her that.

Wednesday. Wednesday. Please be here soon. And last a while.

So much for not blogging.

I'm sick of my mood swings. I can't handle how my mind pushes me around. I really need to get away from everyone and take care of myself. I can't handle a simple task at work either. The stress weighs down on my emotions and I am always having to hold it all in. All of this is making me go back to cutting, but I know I can't do that anymore. It's not worth the consequences. I can't guarantee that I won't, though. I tend to do things without thinking.

It's hard to explain how I work or what I feel inside. It's frustrating that I can't get it out. Especially in a healthy way. Sometimes I know the reasons. "I am the way that I am because ________." No. I cannot say the reasons. They are so ludicrous that I cannot bring myself to tell anyone. I know what they are going to tell me, so I don't bother. I already tell myself I am a fucking idiot. I don't need anyone else to tell me what I know. I fucking hate you. I hate who you are. I hate how you let others rule over you and make you feel worthless. That's because you ARE worthless. No. No, I'm not. I know there's something out there. There is.

By tomorrow, all of this will either stay with me or leave me be.

I need to get out of this.

Scaraoke sucks.

Today I:

Woke up.

Watched TV.

Cleaned.

Went online and talked to Jen.

Cleaned more.

Got online and HTMLed.

Talked to Mother on the phone.

Had a breakdown and got over it.

Mother laughed at me.

Went to work.

Watched Erika cry.

Twin girls told me I was "the most beautiful girl in the world."

Erika told everyone about my piercing.

Ramiro didn't mind.

Karaoke was... ugh.

Saw tattoos.

Laughed.

Erika discovered my scars.

She almost told Brenda, but I stopped her.

I told her not to tell anyone. Let them find out for themselves.

Left work.

Ate.

Got online and waited for Kolin.

Also, I was telling Erika about how the concert was cancelled and that it was rescheduled for this coming Wednesday. I was excited, but she looked at me like, "Uh-oh" and told me that everyone has to be at work on the first Wednesday of every month. So, I had a talk with my boss, Ramiro, and HE looked at me like, "Ooooh. You're fucked now. Haa" Oh yeah. He was going to make me come, but Erika called her sister in and she's taking my place for that night. PHEW. Close one, huh Sin? God, I really need this.

Ahaaaa.

foxy is the king of the world says:
no one did anything april fools-y today... except for my science class
foxy is the king of the world says:
i was so sleepy today so everyone used me for theirs. i think i made about 15 calls to people's parent's offices saying things like their child got suspended for some crazy reason that would never happen and such
foxy is the king of the world says:
it was kinda funny to hear "WHAAAAAAAT?!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
foxy is the king of the world says:
like this girl emily, her older brother like haaates smoking and such. like, when they go to a city he refuses to get out of the car, and then he like puts his shirt over his face and such.. so i was like "Hello, this is Jennifer Lavner from the Algonquin Regional High School, calling about your son Corey. Corey was caught this afternoon smoking in the girl's gym locker room. Since this is his thi
foxy is the king of the world says:
rd offense, I would like to know if you are available to come pick him up?"
foxy is the king of the world says:
his dad like FLIPPED out.
foxy is the king of the world says:
er her dad *
foxy is the king of the world says:
I was like "Excuse me, sir, your daughter is here in the office and would like to speak with you." So I gave her the phone and she was like "April Fools, dad" and she said that he said i did a good job of giving him a heart attack =P

Bad Jen. :D

Looks like everyone is out to get someone today. So every year... for one day I become the biggest skeptic in the fucking world.

9:41 PM: Heh.

Ater this heals I am replacing it with a spiked one. I don't like barbells much. Not for an industrial, anyway. Next: Orbital.

Something like that.