Friday Five.

1. What kind of computer do you have? (Mac, iBook, Dell, etc.)
I have an HP.

2. How old is it? Are you happy with it?
I've had Henry (yes, it has a name) since October of 2003. So, almost 2 years. I was happy with it in the beginning. Then it died on me. Restored. Not as great as before, but it's working.

3. How many computers are in your household? (at home if you are away at school)
Hmm. Three. Mine, my sisters (used to be mine), and one in a closet. A very old one.

4. What are your favorite games/timewasters on your computer?
SOLITARE. I don't play it as much anymore. I also love my programs (i.e. Photoshop, Illustrator, etc.)

5. If money were no object, what kind of computer would you like to have?
I'd love a custom-made tower, really. Maybe one done by Nanj or Ozzy. They are both pretty good at it. I'd actually get two. A PC and a Mac. Oh yesssss. Yes.

*shrieks*

YOU DON'T KNOW THE TOR-TURE!
YOU DON'T KNOW THE PAIN!

Ah. Hmm.

Dad's been calling a lot lately. Making sure I eat and what not. He doesn't know that I only eat after 10PM. :) My only time to eat. Or drink something. He offered to bring me something (when he called he was on his way home from work). I refused. I didn't want him to come ALL the way over here just to bring me a burger. No need. I reassured him that I would make something. I slept all fucking day today. It was horrible. I only got up twice. Once to go to the bathroom. I don't get tired when I shower now, though. So, that means that I've gotten used to not eating that much. WOO. Yeah, I know. Shut up.

Julian came up to my window this morning to ask what my bank account number was. It seems that mother wants to give me some money so that I can use it for my sister (emergencies, etc.). Right. Whatever. I wanted to start saving money for college and graduation. God, that is going to be fucking hard.

I feel like talking a walk right now. Hmm. HAHAH. I just came across this. The responses are funnier then the assumptions this person made about the Heartagram.

1. Jack Snyder Says:
   

   Could it be a heart and a Star of David? The driver could be saying I love Israel.

2. Scott Kirwin Says:
   

   Jack
   Hmmm… I hadn’t thought of that. It’s possible, considering this necklace

3. Tony Says:
   

   Jesus people, thats Bam Margera’s Heartagram.

   If you don’t know how Bam is he is a member of cKy.

   If you don’t know what cKy is its like the original version of MTV’s Jackass.

   If you don’t know what Jackass is then you need to go look it up.

4. Megan Says:
   

   Duh…..the heartagram is on a television show called,”Viva La Bam” The Heartagram means nothing bad though. It just basically, stands for skateboarding and stunts and things like that.

WRONG! YOU ARE ALL WRONG! YOU COULDN'T BE MORE WRONG! Even *I* know where the fuck that comes from and I know shit about it. Sorry. This was hilarious.

I'm infected with you,
Pull the plug already (PULL THE PLUG!)
Tell me before I go,
That you're infected with me.

I need their CDs. And their new one to come next month. Hee. I HATE BEING BROKE. :) Eh. I'll get them soon. I just have to go over to Rhino and get them used. I like used CDs. I need a lot of CDs, but I can't handle it all. SO MUCH MUSIC, SO MANY BANDS. It's insane. I invest some of my time looking for new bands over at MySpace. Local ones. I found one yesterday! Well, more, but some sucked. In This Moment. I like this one for some reason. It's good enough for me to listen to. I like the music more. The music is mmmm. I know once the sound quality gets better, their music will be damn good. Like whoa. Plus, Mari (the singer, not my sister) is fucking HAWT. More so with her curly hair. *drools* Sorry. *clears throat* 3 Hrs. Old seems cool, too. Also Stasera. They aren't horrible. I hope to find MORE music. Mooore. Moooooooore.

Ah. Bed.

I can't keep doing this.

Meh. Anyway, I made a new blog. I was tired of all the quizzes and surveys taking over my main blog, so I made a new pne to shove all of that into.

Survey Vomit

It's not done. I just made it all so it'll look "decent." If anyone wants to join... right.

Ugh. Bed.

BLAH. :(

You Are an Emo Rocker!

Expressive and deep, lyrics are really your thing. That doesn't mean you don't rock out... You just rock out with meaning. For you, rock is more about connecting than grandstanding.

What Kind of Rocker Are You?

Enough with the Emo already!

You are a Self-Discoverer

You're not religious, but you've created your own kind of spirituality. Introspective and thoughtful, you tend to look inward for the divine. You are distrusting of all forms of organized religion. You especially dislike religious gurus and leaders, who you feel are charlatans.

What's Your Religious Philosophy?

YES. Yes.

Your Seduction Style: Fantasy Lover

You know that ideal love that each of us dreams of from childhood? That's you! Not because you posess all of the ideal characteristics, but because you are a savvy shape shifter. You have the uncanny ability to detect someone's particular fantasy... and make it you. You inspire each person to be an idealist and passionate, and you make each moment memorable Even a simple coffee date with you can be the most romantic moment of someone's life By giving your date exactly what he or she desires, you quickly become the ideal lover. Your abilities to make dreams come true is so strong, that you are often the love of many people's lives. Your ex's (and even people you have simply met or been friends with) long to be yours. No doubt you are the one others have dreamed of... your biggest challenge is finding *your* dream lover.

What Kind of Seducer Are You?

No challenge there.

You Are 70% Weird

You're so weird, you think you're *totally* normal. Right? But you wig out even the biggest of circus freaks!

How Weird Are You?

o_O No?

In a Past Life...

You Were: A Famous Poet. Where You Lived: Boliva. How You Died: Buried alive.

Who Were You In a Past Life?

I put "Unemployed." Haha.

Your Career Type: Social

You are helpful, friendly, and trustworthy. Your talents lie in teaching, nursing, giving information, and solving social problems. You would make an excellent: Counselor - Dental Hygienist - Librarian Nurse - Parole Officer - Personal Trainer Physical Therapist - Social Worker - Teacher The worst career options for your are realistic careers, like truck driver or farmer.

What's Your Ideal Career?

My second is Artistic, but right now... it's that up there. I don't feel comfortable with that, though. I would love it if I could COMBINE them both.

Your Hidden Talent

You are both very knowledgeable and creative. You tend to be full of new ideas and potential - big potential. Ideas like yours could change the world, if you build them. As long as you don't stop working on your dreams, you'll get there.

What's Your Hidden Talent?

Your Musical Tastes Match: Nicole Kidman

See her whole playlist here (iTunes required)

What Celebrity Matches Your Taste in Music?

NO?! I saw her playlist. I didn't see much in there that I cared for. Few exceptions.

What does your name mean?

Cristal

You are both a visionary and a realist able to bring your dreams into a tangible form. Pioneering and ambitious you accept new challenges and the responsibilities which go with them willingly. Your sound judgement, resourcefulness and positive nature means that your progress in life is assured. Certainly your kindness and generosity to others and your inspirational manner attract success as well as many admirers.

Check yours out here. Mine wasn't even close.

OH. So, The Bleacher Boys didn't win the contest that was held in Berkley. It doesn't matter. Theirs is HILARIOUS. You have to watch it. Now. XD!!!! I have seen this maybe around seven times. Eight. LOL

Watch it.

There are four scenes together, but my favorite ones are Dante's (first one) and Travis' (third one).

Sock. Puppets. En Español.

Ha.

TO THE BATMOBILE!

Your Deadly Sins

Sloth: 100%

Wrath: 40%

Envy: 0%

Gluttony: 0%

Greed: 0%

Lust: 0%

Pride: 0%

Chance You'll Go to Hell: 20%

You will get bugs, because you're too lazy to shoo them off. And then you'll die.

How Sinful Are You?

Of course.

Your Daddy Is Johnny Depp

What You Call Him: Papito Why You Love Him: He gives good spankings

Who's Your Daddy?

I beg to differ. I have two daddies and he isn't one of them.

You Are 20% Boyish and 80% Girlish

Even if you're not a girl, you're very feminine. You're in touch with your feelings, and your heart rules you. A bit of a emotional roller coaster, one moment you're up and the next you're down. But no matter what, you try to be as cute and perky as possible.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

How You Are In Love

You take a while to fall in love with someone. Trust takes time. You tend to take more than give in relationships. You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time. You're secretly hoping your partner will change for you. You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

How Are You In Love?

Hmm. Some parts are true. One out of the five doesn't seem right.

B-

Your senses are pretty sharp (okay, most of the time) And it takes something big to distract you!

How Observant Are You?

Ha. I actually thought I did damn well. *shrugs* But this is true.

Your Blogging Type is Kind and Harmonious

You're an approachable blogger who tends to have many online friends. People new to your blogging circle know they can count on you for support. You tend to mediate fighting and drama. You set a cooperative tone. You have a great eye for design - and your blog tends to be the best looking on the block!

What's Your Blogging Personality?

Your World View

You are a fairly broadminded romantic and reasonably content. You value kindness and try to live by your ideals. You have strong need for security, which may be either emotional or material. You respect truth and are flexible. You like people, and they can readily make friends with you. You are not very adventurous, but this does not bother you.

What Is Your World View?

Yeah. Enough.

:(

Another night wasted. Sigh.

Fall asleep when you're in deep.

*still waiting to move*

Heh. I might as well blog since I am still here. Julian did say that we only had two days to move (his days off), but he told me later on that he was still waiting for the call. Okaaay. Eh. I only got three hours of sleep in the morning. I decided to get up and apply at this place I found on the net. You know, no matter what I do, I could never look OLD enough for people. Yes, I admit that I do dress like I am 15, but when I don't it still doesn't look right. I feel so fake. So, I go in and I am not really greeted right away. They were a little busy, but still. I gave them a hi. I went up to this somewhat grouchy looking woman and asked her about the job. She looked at me and said, "You have to be 18." I tell her, "I'm over 18." She looks at me and asks me how old I am. "21. Er. 22." I said. Lol. I don't know what kind of person the lady is, but I got a bad vibe from her. She went over to get an application (didn't even bother to give me a fucking pen, so it was a good thing I always carry one with me) and gave it to me. Didn't say anything. She seemed bothered or something. Whatever. So, I went outside and filled out the application. As soon as I finished filling it out, I went inside and and gave her the application. She looked it over, addressed me by my name, and introuduced herself. I shook her hand. Always shake hands. She just wanted me to make sure it the job was only temporary (I knew that) and part time. I knew all of that. I just need a damn job. For now. She said she'd call to set an interview with me. Yeah right. She's not calling back. Hey, I love looking younger, but I am never taken seriously. It's sad. I can't expect anything more from people, though. So...

Julian is taking me to Target tomorrow so I can apply there. I don't want to, but I have no choice. I gotta think about Mari here. Ah.

My chest still hurts.

Lol. Eh. Been sleeping too much or something. I can't laugh.

M-O!
M-O-R!
M-O-R-N-I-N-G!

M-O!
M-O-R!
M-O-R-N-I-N-G-W-O-O-D!

If you're Rock 'n' Roll, Disco, Heavy Metal Angel!
Come on everybody. To the Nth Degree!

Hm. I went to bed late. Like a little after 10 AM late. lol I woke up four and half hours later. I was mostly by myself today. It was a great opportunity to clean my room. The phone kept ringing and I kept ignoring it. I heard one message from some woman wishing my mother a happy birthday and I started to laugh. I forgot what today was. Oh well. Mari went out with Sandy to some jewelry show. She got me this simple, but cool ring. It's silver and has a pink star gem on it. :D Fits a little big, but oh well. My dad called me today. I told him about how Julian wanted to take me to the agency. Then he went on about how he wanted to help me, how it was a good idea, and blah. "What about Mari?" I asked him. Then he said that she would be fine on her own or that his woman would look after her. What? God. She has children of her OWN. She can't be bothered to worry about us. My dad always does that. He always puts us first before others. I am lucky to have a dad who even gives a fuck, but ever since I was little he's always wanted to do stuff for me and I've always denied him. I got kinda pissed off at him. Then we lost signal. He didn't call back. Not until hours later. We talked for a good while. It sounded like he wanted to cry. I guess. He was almost whispering. We talked about our situation and I was trying to sound a little upbeat about it, but I fought damn well hard to not cry over the phone. It wasn't easy. I was trying to sound like I wasn't bothered by anything.

Then Julian came in my room an hour ago asking for quarters. Then he tells me that we have two days to move out and into the apartment. My heart sank. I don't know why, but I got in a bad mood. To make matters worse, his friends are in the living room right now watching a movie. That just boils my blood. I don't like them. At all.

So, if I do move, I'll be gone for a while. Until I get some kind of internet connection going. I doubt it, though. If not... I'll come around sooner or later. I can't stay away forever. If I am not back and you need to get a hold of me, call my cell. :) Make it after 9 PM my time, though. It would help a lot.

Zooooom!

Mmm. Sleep.

Couldn't sleep. Too much on my mind. I tried around 3 AM, but once Mari got up asking for some kind of nightlight, I decided to go ahead and take a shower. And now, I am waiting for 7 AM so I can wake Mari up and then takeover my bed. Meh heh heh. What I really want to do right now is go outside. It's really beautiful out right now (from what I can see through my window). But I can't do that. If I do, I'd have to come back sometime and I don't want to do that with them around.

I ate today. :o After not eating for two days, I decided it was time to give something to my body. I was so weak today, I think I only left my bed to go to the bathroom once.

Hmm. Julian actually tried to take me to this agency so I could start working with him Friday. I asked him, "Who's going to take care of Mari?" Then he replied, "My dad is going to be there." And I said, "But he isn't going to move with us until two months after." (I really fucking hate the idea of him putting his life on hold of us. Fuck). Woo. He got mad, I guess. But fuck. I don't want to work where he does. I would have to work EVENINGS. Fuck that shit. I am sick of people always pushing me into doing what THEY want. I haven't held a job that wasn't picked by me yet. Yes, it does help, but shit. Fuck off. If they get pissed off at me, I'll fucking leave them and go live in the fucking street. Anything that I have picked was never good enough for them. Fuckers.

I got to talk to my Kolin a few hours ago. GOD, that made me so fucking happy. I hadn't been that happy since, uh... anyway, yay! I had so much fun talking to him. Man. It was the beeeeeeest. I love you! :D

Oy. Getting sleepy. 30 minutes to go!

Woo!

Keep'em coming! lol

Dad called me a while ago. I asked him about what mom said to him. Hahaha. I got chills. Anyway, he tells me what Julian told me. Why we were refusing to talk to her and she asked him if he had anything to do with us not doing so. HAHAHA. Bitch. *sigh* My dad just let go. "Look, stop playing victim. You have to stop that. They aren't talking to you because of all the shit you have been doing to them. They have their reasons." And then mom proceeded with saying, "But Guille said-" to which my dad interrupted, "What are you? A child? Are you still letting people tell you what to do? God, you have to GROW UP." And then she started to complain about me. OF COURSE. "Look," Dad tells her, "That's it. You are going to leave Cristal alone. You will not complain about her ever again. Where were you when I was paying you $700 a month? Why didn't you complain then? It was because you were comfortable. But then they turned 18 and the checks stopped coming. That's when you started. Just pack your shit already and leave them alone. It's done." Mmmhmm. He even told my brother to leave me the fuck alone. So, yeah. I felt even worthless then. Wow. Am I the problem? Seriously. Is it me that everyone is suffering? Because they sure as hell complain a shit load.

XD God. This is fucking hilarious. I mean... hey, I should kill myself! Right!? I mean, that would make EVERYONE'S LIFE BETTER! Hurrah! No more Cristal to hold them fucking down! Why am I here anyway? It seems to me that I have NO FUCKING PURPOSE TO STAY HERE ANYMORE. Right? No. I have something out there. Something here. It may not be visible right now, but I have a reason to continue on. It hurts, but I have to stay.

I just have to fuck it all.

L-O-FUCKING HELL-L

Sorry. Just. Julian. Lol. He told me today on our way to the post office that mom had called my dad to complain about us. Hahaha. "They won't talk to meeee!" XD!!!!!!!! OMGLOL. Sorry. Just. Well, no fucking shit, bitch. Right? So, he told her, "Look if you called me just to gossip about my kids, then I am ending this right now." And then told her off by saying, "What did you expect them to do? They didn't stop talking to you because they hate you. They have their reasons why they aren't. You're practically ruining their lives." I agree with everything except the "ruining lives" part. Then she mentioned my aunt and well... I didn't know what that was about. I am going to call him tomorrow and see what is up. LOL Wow. Really.

And I am still looking for a job. They are opening a new Torrid over at the Ontario Mills. Imma call and ask what they are looking for. I also took down a couple of numbers and ask what they need. Seriously, I've been going from website to website to find something that I could do, but I can't find shit. This self-esteem... Woo! Anyway. Whatever. Funny shit.

Lightning, thunder, and rain! Oh my!

Mostly lightning. It looks pretty bad two towns over, but I can't wait for it to hit here. I think. The lightning is pretty crazy, too.

Been three years.

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid Personality Disorder:	Very High
Schizoid Personality Disorder:	Moderate
Schizotypal Personality Disorder:	Very High
Antisocial Personality Disorder:	Low
Borderline Personality Disorder:	Very High
Histrionic Personality Disorder:	High
Narcissistic Personality Disorder:	Moderate
Avoidant Personality Disorder:	Very High
Dependent Personality Disorder:	High
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder:	High
-- Take the Personality Disorder Test -- -- Personality Disorder Info --

Not much of a change since the last time I took it. And the one before that. At least I am still not anti-social. Lol!

I give.

ANOTHER HP Trailer.

Oh yesss. You can DL it here. It's a zip file.

The quality isn't great, but you can still make it out. This is the UK trailer. And I think I heard Voldemort talking. It sounded snake-like. "You don't have a choice-sssss." Eh. I dunno. Just reminds me of Voldemort from the first movie. I have to re-re-read the book. Which I started to a few months ago, but I stopped. I will start once again! I packed all of my shit up, except for that book. Oh, if you're wondering who that is with Nagini, that's Barty Crouch Jr. And it seems to fit. Yeah it's not in the book, but that is certainly NOT Wormtail. That part did throw me off until I read somewhere who he was.

"Kill the boy who lived."

From a Leaky comment box: Ahh...the Beauxbatons ladies...so feminine they fart butterflies.

LOL

You can also DL yesterday's tailer here.

Goblet of Fire Trailer #3

Check it out here. This is the best HP trailer yet. THE BEST. It almost made me cry, but only because I was looking at something great. Because right now this is the only good thing that I can look forward to seeing.



The Dark Mark. :O I assume this is Barty Crouch Jr. sending the Dark Mark into the sky. I hope we get to see the snake coming out of the skull's mouth.



The Death Eaters having loads of fun after the World Quidditch Cup. I failed to notice in the previous trailers that there were people being tortured/up in the air above the Death Eaters. It's in the book and I was wondering if they were doing to show that. IT ROCKS.



A spider that was unfortunate enough to come across one of the unforgivable Curses. Avada Kedavra. This is Mad-Eye Moody teaching the kids how it works.



The Goblet of Fire. It turns red when it chooses it's competitor for the Triwizard Tournament.



My favorite! The Yule Ball. I hope to be in a room like this one day. I love it.



Sirius Black talking to Harry through the fire. This is better than what I imagined.



Dumbledore working the Pensieve.



And of course...

Those are the screen shots that I took. You can see more from The Leaky Cauldron in here.

This isn't relevant to Harry Potter, but these nails are pretty. Some look like fucking candy. Makes me hungry. :( Just scroll down a little bit on the left frame and click on the links that say CharmingPrincess, DearPrincess, SugarLady, and RoyalPrincess. You should also click on the link where it says *New* (above CharmingPrincess) and the ones below RoyalPrincess.

Because I'm bored and need a lot of disctraction.

1. Do you still know/talk to the person you lost your virginity too?
Uh... I haven't "lost" that yet.

2. What would you do with 1,000 plastic spoons?
Give me a thousand bowls and LOTS of badass soup and one thousand people will have a meal for the day.

3. What kind of music did you listen to in elementary school?
I listened to oldies or some spanish music. And whatever there was on Beavis and Butt-Head.

4. What is the best thing about your current job?
I HAVE NO JOB!

5. Do you wish cell phone ettiquette was a required class upon purchasing one?
Uh. No? All that kind of shit is common sense. People know it, they just choose to be dickheads like that.

6. Are you against marriage?
I am not against it. I am skeptical about it.

7. Why?
Because of the way I grew up seeing how marriage works for most. It just fails. You get together, you get married, problems start to pile up, and then you brutally kill each other and those around you. I don't care about it. I grew up seeing how pointless marriage is. The only good thing about it is sharing a name with a person that you love and growing your own legacy out of that name.

8. What's the most fucked up food combination you've come up with that's actually tasty?
I dunno. I'd say scrambled eggs with chocolate. Mari looooved those.

9. Have you been on a date in the past week?
Never been on a date in my life.

10. If yes how did it go, if no, why not?
Because... I haven't gotten around to it? It just hasn't happened yet. Dates are too proper, though. You have to act a certain way, pretend to be cool, try to be witty, blah, blah. I'd rather hang out.

11. Where are you going on your next vacation?
I am never getting those again.

12. Quote a song lyric, because I told you to!
You're the ones that kill your babies!
You're the ones that fuck your kids!
You're the ones that throw each other away!
You're the ones sitting in church every Sunday!

13. Are most of the friends in your life new or old?
Old.

15. Do you own any furniture from Ikea?
No.

16. Are you ashamed of having it?
No. Why would I?

17. What do you wish someone would buy you?
Comfort.

18. What do you think of hipsters?
They kill your chances of having babies! No. I dunno. Whatever. Not into fashion.

19. What are you wearing right now?
Um. Jeans, blue shirt, and black hoodie.

20. When is the last time you had mom's home cookin'?
Today. :(

21. Do you like your parents?
Mom: No. Dad: Sure.

22. Do you still live with them?
Physically, yes. Mentally, no. It'll be no for sure soon.

23. What state/country are you from?
California.

24. Do you ever wish you were gay/straight?
No. I wish I were STABLE. "What is stable anyway, Cristal?" OH fuck you, asshole.

25. Tell us about the last conversation you had.
Um... just stuff with Colette. Life.

26. Where do you see yourself in one month?
Hopefully working and settled. But I see myself in the streets, far away.

27. What is your favorite smell?
New-born baby smell.

28. Home Depot: pure evil or pure genius?
Pure idiots at times. I don't care.

29. Do you consider yourself bi-polar?
Heh.

30. What is the time and the outside temperature at the moment?
11:38 PM/59°F

:l

Hey Everyone!

Last weekend I lost my brand new car in a car accident, and along with it I lost my cell phone with all your numbers in it. Would you mind emailing me your numbers so that I have them again for the next cell phone? If you need to get a hold of me just call my house number for the time being ******. If you call my cell phone number now, or have called this past week, I haven't gotten your messages as I have suspended my cell phone service until the old one was recovered or when I get a new one.

I am Oxie Moron: Hey, are you okay?
strwberryscgirl: yeah, i'm okay
I am Oxie Moron: How did it happen? ;(
strwberryscgirl: some ho bag smashed into my passenger side door while i was in the fast lane on the freeway going toward west covina and it smashed my car into the center divider and i ended up flipping and rolling three times just like in the movies
I am Oxie Moron: Uh... what? You actually FLIPPED?
strwberryscgirl: yup
strwberryscgirl: and kept flipping
strwberryscgirl: the car landed on the roof
I am Oxie Moron: Fuck. Where you in there by yourself?
strwberryscgirl: and i was hanging upside down in my seat belt
I am Oxie Moron: Jesus.
strwberryscgirl: yeah, i was by myself
I am Oxie Moron: Fucking hell, man. I'm glad you made it out okay. When did this happen?
strwberryscgirl: last friday
I am Oxie Moron: Hey sorry, I got a phone call. So no broken anything?
strwberryscgirl: no
strwberryscgirl: well
I am Oxie Moron: Scratches?
strwberryscgirl: i hit my head on something
I am Oxie Moron: Ouch.
strwberryscgirl: so i have a huge gash on my head
strwberryscgirl: over 10 stitches
strwberryscgirl: double stitches
I am Oxie Moron: Ugh.
strwberryscgirl: and they had to shave part of my head
I am Oxie Moron: UGH.
strwberryscgirl: :'(
I am Oxie Moron: Are you at home right now?
strwberryscgirl: and my three week old car is a total loss
strwberryscgirl: no, i'm at school catching up on stuff
I am Oxie Moron: I know, that's gotta be hard :-(

This girl never gets a fucking break.

Check out my baby nephew!

:D!!!!

Fear of Success? Fear of Failure?

Just reading some crap.

In her book, "Personality Plus", author Florence Littauer details the four major personality types that people possess. Each succeeds in business in a different way, just as each fails for specific reasons.

• The Choleric knows it all. "There are two ways to do anything; my way, and the wrong way." He's quick to act and judge, but slow to accept blame for bad decisions. (On Your Mark, Go!)
  
  
• The Sanguine looks for the fun. "Is it boring here, or does any one else want to PARTY?!" Because of her infectious enthusiasm, she can rally support for any cause. But if things get dull, it's "sayonara" Sanguine. (Get Set, Go!)
  
  
• The Melancholy is a perfectionist. "Now let's not rush to any conclusions until we have all the details." If you need a clever, detailed strategy, ask a Melancholy. Just don't expect him to act on anything until he has all the facts. (On Your Mark, Get Set, Get Set, Get Set...)
  
  
• The Phlegmatic is easy going and does things at her own pace. "Whatever. I'm easy." Slow to anger and slow to judge, the Phlegmatic is also slow to get excited because basically, she hates change. If you want her to do something, you have to give her a good, sound reason. (On Your Mark...You Know, On Second Thought...)

Awww!

This is a sweet little story. READ IT!

That guy is LUCKY she said yes.

I don't know.

Julian went down to the first apartment complex that we saw yesterday. He went there with my dad, so it's pretty much ours now. Two bedroom, two bathroom apartment. Julian called me this afternoon telling me that Victor (fuck) and his little brother (fuck²) are going to stay over with us. We need help paying the bills, so yeah. I am not happy about it, but he DID ask me to be sure that I would be cool about it and I am not, but due to some circumstances, I just have to deal with it. They are just not reliable at all. They have my brother paying for everything sometimes. It's fucking sad.

That just threw me off a little bit because yesterday he was talking about how he wasn't going to let them in or stay over and whatnot. Right. But I told him if they fuck up, they are out.

Anyway, Mari told me that they they told them that we can move in this weekend if we wanted to. God, I have SO MUCH shit that I'd need to pack if we do. And because of my current state (I can't even change clothes without getting nauseous) I doubt I could do it in a day.

My room smells ;(

Of dirty plates. I haven't been out in the kitchen much.

I hadn't seen my brother in maybe three days and today he came in my room to talk to me. My aunt found some small apartment complex that had some rooms available. My brother went up there and checked it out. He pretty much got excited about the location and the look that he wanted to actually start the process of moving there (We have until the 15th of October). He actually made some kind of appointment with the apartment manager and he and I had to go in there so that she could run both of us to see if we had credit. I do, but Julian doesn't. He even went to some furniture store and bought a sofa bed. XD God. I guess he wants that credit badly. Anyway, on our way there Julian and I started to re-think about the apartment. What if we find something better? Or cheaper? This one was only $900 for one room and we would eventually move to a two-bedroom apartment that's $1,100. And they allow pets. ^-^ We passed by it to tell the manager that we would like a few days to think about it and so on. We passed by and she wasn't there. Alrighty. Too bad. I saw tha apartment complex and it was... small. It was cool, though.

I asked Julian to take me to the library so that I can ask where the Ontario Human Resources Department was at. I had an idea, but I had to make sure. Anyway, I wanted to see if they had any housing brochures that we can look at. I had picked one up from the Upland deparment the day of my interview. After that we went to Michael's to check some stuff out. I hadn't been outside in more than a week so this was a treat for me. A big one. I haven't even seen Gavin since Friday night. :(

So, tomorrow Julian and I are going to go apartment hunting. I found one online that is PERFECT for us. Like wow. But it's too far from Mari's school. Bah. BUT IT ROCKS. We'll see.

I saw grandma today and I just quickly looked at her and gave her a sorry-ass smile and went straight to my room. I hadn't looked or talked to my mom either. Woo.

Dating/Marriage Question

I always think about how one should react towards girls that flirt with your man (especially when you're right next to him) without getting violent about it. I am not a violent person, but I do have a temper and I show it without saying a word. I stare down. lol Lame. I don't know what I am capable of doing since I've never been in a fight. And to tell you the truth, I believe that fighting is fucking ridiculous. No one looks good doing it. And I know that I wouldn't fight "fair" either. I know that I'm going to have to deal with that bullshit a lot. I hate girls like that. And guys like that, too. Anyway, I read this in the Torrid boards. Some of the suggestions are good, but other are too violent for me.

Blackcherrie	How do you handle chicks flirting with your man in front of you? It happens to me all the time and I don't want to be all over him and look insecure but If I just stand there I feel stupid. He ignores them but the rejection makes them try harder.	9/12/2005
Nickname	Replies	Date
sunnybunny	Um...excuse me, this is my man and I would appreciate if you don't blatantly try to get his attention...or else. I will blatantly cause you harm.	9/12/2005
retrokitten13	I get this a lot.. He usually puts his arm around my waist or calls me by my pet name, to show that I belong to him. Or if I'm across the way and I notice a girl sweating him I will walk up and grab his hand or say "hey sweetie, I was looking for you. Who is your friend?" and give him a kiss on the cheek, that pretty much gives them the hint and they will leave.	9/12/2005
tat2dbettie	I'd use the same approach as sunnybunny... haha. And be sure to let my man know that when we are out together, there should be no question about the fact that we are TOGETHER. :-)	9/12/2005
gummibear	If he's letting it happen, you should tell him that it bothers you. One of my exes used to get hit on constantly while I was with him. He would usually grab my hand, put an arm around me, or bend down and whisper something in my ear and then smile at the girl and walk away. If they didn't take the hint, he'd point out that I was his girlfriend or ask them to leave/stop (he was always very polite about it though.) Some girls are relentless and awfully disrespectful. But even if he IS ignoring them, your guy shouldn't let it continue. Yeah, it's nice to be hit on, but he should be taking your feelings into consideration. He should be doing something to let them know that he's taken. If he doesn't and it bothers you, mention it to him.	9/12/2005
GoBerryGo	I had the reverse this weekend, I went out with friends and A guy and some other guys I know were talking to me (yes they were hitting on me) and the guy I was with came up behind me and started kissing my neck, I though that was over the top, he could have just came and put his arm around me or something.	9/12/2005
gilopili	That use to happen a lot with my x boyfriend too!!! I really hated it when people thought that I was not pretty enough for him, due to my weight. But it.s true what the girls are telling you here. For you not to feel so insecure (cause deep down you will always insecure, even if you are a size 4) he has to be supportive and be there for you. PDA is a very good idea also befriend your enemies, maybe is the way you can change some perspectives.	9/12/2005
Blackcherrie	Thanks guys! I was starting to feel really bad over it. I feel like these girls assume since they are smaller he will like them more than me even if they are not that attractive. I have seen the pics of some of your Boyfriends/Husbands and they are very attractive. My Husband tattooed metal guy and the stangest people flirt with him including relatives. It really is his job to fix it. The arms around the waist is perfect but the whisper and "Whos your friend" is perfect for the people that can't take a hint.	9/12/2005
Erica33043	I'd just kick her a**! J/K But that is seriously messed up and your bf's should be taking into consideration that you are with them and to not allow this flirting to continue.	9/12/2005
Tinakinz	I get that alot too. Because whenever me and Anthony go out we always look like we're brother and sister so I always tease him when he kisses me in public I'll be like Is that anyway to kiss your sister? We get some strange looks but it keeps us laughing. Just tell them hoes to back it up and get a life and a man preferably not yours!

C-C-Cooold.

Somewhat. Brr. So, since two days ago, temperature has been around the 70s. I've been wearing my hoodie. Inside. Wahahaha. It feels greeeeat. I haven't been out much, though. :( I only left my room twice yesterday. I can't hold it in for as long as I wish I could. Bah. I haven't gone to bed yet, either. I tried, but after an hour and a half of thinking too much I decided to get up and take a shower. I don't remember the last time I took a shower at 3AM. I didn't get to shower yesterday. So, now I am awake. Not for long, though.

I didn't know that it took so much fucking energy to take a damn shower. I swear towards the end I started to lose my breath. Even as I changed, I was getting weak, my jaw started to ache a bit, and my body started to internally shake. I got nauseous from CHANGING clothes. I had to stop and take a rest against the sink. Catch my breath. Even after I was done and in my room, I was still shaking. I can't deprive myself of sleep. It's not good for me. lol Ah, well... I am hoping to get out of the house today. I just can't bare to see anyone right now. Or them seeing me.

The Friday (Yes, it's Monday) Five.

I bet you never thought I would come bac to doing this. huh?

1) What was the first song you remember hearing and enjoying on the radio?

I can't say because my memory is so horrible. Hmm. *shrugs* I'll say this Elvis song when I was 8. I can't go back further, but I chose that memory because it sparked my love for oldies music.

2) If you could only listen to five CDs for a year, which five would they be? (Boxed sets can count as one CD. Sigh.)

APC - Mer De Noms, Tool - Aenima, Otep - Sevas Tra, Alice In Chains - Greatest Hits, and Norah Jones - Come Away With Me. Those aren't all my favorites, though. Just some that I'd probably listen to.

3) What was your favorite year, music-wise?

I'd say 1997-1998 (that's a year school-wise) and not because of the kind of music, but because of how happy music made me then.

4) If you could witness one historical music event through all time, what would you pick, and why?

This one isn't hard. I'd want to see my dad play with this band that he used to tour with. Not sure in which state I'd like to him him in, though. Maybe Oregon. I think that was his favorite. And because it's my dad, dammit.

5) Do you have a song that never fails to cheer you up? What is it and why does it do that for you?

Right now it's In The Waiting Line by Zero 7. It doesn't really "cheer" me up. This song just relaxes the hell out of me. And it's a part of one of the best scenes from Garden State. I relate to it a lot.

Doot doot.

I should have gone to bed hours ago, but now there's no point. I really don't want to be here. I don't want to see her mother. Or anyone. I'm just gonna go out early and come back later.

DAMN YOU, OKCUPID!

I can't sleep. :( So, more quizzes!

Pure Dork 43 % Nerd, 43% Geek, 60% Dork

For The Record: A Nerd is someone who is passionate about learning/being smart/academia. A Geek is someone who is passionate about some particular area or subject, often an obscure or difficult one. A Dork is someone who has difficulty with common social expectations/interactions. You scored better than half in Dork, earning you the title of: Pure Dork. Like our friends Napoleon Dynamite & co. It's not as though you were some whiz-kid in school. Oh, sure, you probably did okay in some classes, but were probably awful in others. Certainly most people thought you were smarter than you thought yourself to be. And it's not that you have some overriding passion, like computers or Star Trek that sets you apart for the crowd, though you likely share some interest in some of those sorts of things. You just like to be yourself, and want to express yourself for who you are. And, really, there's nothing wrong with that. Being who you are often invites scorn, and so it's a difficult thing in a world that rewards conformity. Be proud of your dorkiness, for often it's just another word for individuality. (I'd vote for you!) Congratulations! Thanks Again! -- THE NERD? GEEK? OR DORK? TEST

My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 26% on nerdiness You scored higher than 61% on geekosity You scored higher than 94% on dork points

But of course. :)

I took the The Personality Defect Test again and I got the SAME shit as last time. Emo Kid. >:(

Hot Tamale You have an intellectual sexiness factor of 68!

You're hot! You've read a lot. You've done a lot, and there's a lot you'd like to try in the future. You've got a sharp, sexy mind, and few inhibitions to restrain you from exploring all the pleasure you can get. You have few hang-ups, and there's not much you don't know about sex. You're open-minded and able to enjoy things that would make a lesser person squeamish. You're an exceptional treat as a lover, appreciated greatly by those who know the differnce. You were probably bored with a few of the people you've been with in your past, feeling like you had to drag them along with you in the sexual adventures you want to have, and probably dumping them for the same reason. It takes a lot to stimulate you; you realize it's not just about bumping uglies. In the end there's gotta be a lot more to it. Still, there is always room for improvement. Before you can graduate into a true sexual genius, there are a few things you've got to learn, to explore, to think through, talk through, and fuck through. A good place to start is in taking a look at the few things you're still a little hesitant to try. Break down you're last few barriers and discover the outer sexual frontiers, and you'll become a master.

My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 35% on sexiness The Intellectual Sexiness Test

Yeah-the-fuck right. o_o Fuck this. BED!

Alivan's

You can buy a wand of your own here. Find out what kind of wand would choose you, too. :D

9", Oak, Unicorn

You scored 36 wisdom, 22 bravery, 31 emotional, and 22 martyrdom!

Oak signifies wisdom, endurance, protection, and authority. Your
unicorn's tail hair core means that you are pure of heart and care
deeply for your loved ones.

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: